hi everyone .. haiis.. now is 3:42 am ! my gawd =/

i cant believe im still typing out here...but just for the record , this is the latest times ever that i blogged ! ahahas :D

weeeh . yea yea . enough of craps .. =/

im feeling so so so so so so ... dunno la... MIXED UP and stuff ..
i suddenly felt like being a deep-thinker luh .

i dunnoo. =/ i wan tuh CRY . cry for as long as i can =((((

i have been keeping a lot of things inside of me la .. and its damn hurting
if i cant talk it out with anyone at all . not even my precious four =(
not even cheryl which i told everything to . not even clara & marie which i run to most of the time if i have problems =(

and most especially, not even tuh si hui who is my full time bestfriend leh =/

then whaat . i dont see myself writing poems again ! no no no .
i cant be that "faye-writer" again =/
i was done talking tuh a paper . which dont even response back .
but .. it sure do makes me realise a lot of stuffs .
but no way . i aint gonna be a faye-writer again ...

IM REALLY HURTING . thats the truth . i have so much pride !
i think too much.. i expect too much.. i was wrong .
REALLY DAMN WRONG about whats happening around =/
i dont even knw myself anymore .
and i cant find who the real me is !
i was influenced here & there =(
i even SMOKED! like wtf ! ME ? FAYE ? SMOKING?
damn it la! why didnt i realised all those!
HOW DUMB CAN I GET! FREAAAAAK .
my life is almost HALF RUINED la .
i lost some friends on my way tuh being someone im not really am.
but on the other side , i gained a lot of friends.
well in fact , a lot of attention . but thats not what i want =(
what i want is tuh be happy!
i want tuh be a faye that is full of friends!
TRUE FRIENDS!
haiiss.. i really dunnoooo =(
and im still .... haiis, no courage tuh say =(

i better end this blog . before i spill more dirt .

sorry guys .
sorry for having too much pride .
sorry for being so insisting =(
everyone out there hu hates me , come tell me luh .
i wan tuh be hated ! so that i would realise m mistakes.

urgh. dunno la =/

LAME LA . hahaha :D

freak.. you see you see! last time when im serious ,
its full time serious .. now even this is so so serious ,
i can still joke around . or , laugh it off .
freekk whatever luh (:

miss 2a mucch :D

faye.