Please allow me to express myself.

28.3.09,

HELLO!

ahaha. what's the cheer about? hehs. Nothing.

Just that when i went out just now, i managed to look at people. Waha.

Let me explain, kase im blinded by pain & anger kaya i cant see anyone else.

But just now, i dont know why either but i felt some happiness within me

and i actually started looking at people and see them laugh, talk and stare:)

Alm mo yun? Just like i forgotten who i was then im finding myself slowly. waa drama!

hahaha. Yea, naging drama queen lang cguro ako. ahaha.

Well seriously, alam ko na ang problema ko.

INSECURITY & UNCONTENTMENT.

- una sa lahat, when we people make a decision, were supposed to face

whatever the consequences will be right? Pero sometimes, when you see yourself

not progressing at all, you'll feel some insecurity inside of you and tend

to blame HIM, or HER, or just whoever else is around you.

Tama ako diba? I guess dumaan lang ako dun. Kaya naging 'baluktot'

ung ugali ko. wahaha. IM SINCERELY SORRY FOR THOSE IVE GIVEN ATITUDES :D

Sana po maintindahan nyo :)

Pero now, im really trying hard. VERY HARD. to be happy:)

To be REAL HAPPY.

Masaya na din ako para sakanya. Ayoko ng mag stop nalang sa kung saan

ako nangiwan, at kung saan ako dumaan. I WANNA MOVE ON.

Maybe that's why he asked me before, "you wanna move on?" .

I understand now. Really. Thankyou for that.

I promise to try hard na maging masaya na DIN. Since i know your happily

living your life na. hehe. Ah ewan :) IYAKIN KASI AKO. at gusto ko baguhin un! :))

Hay grabe. Ang saya ko. Really, ang saya sa puso. Parang nagising ako sa katotohanan.

ahaha. Well ayun.

Again i want to say ;

I WANT THE MONTH OF JUNE TO COME ALITTLE LITTLE FASTER.

KASE IM SO READY TO START MY LIFE AS A SIXTEEN YEAR-OLD LADY!

So to all the people , the bitches and the punks who made me felt so

guilty, so rejected, so desperate, MARAMING SALAMAT .

Dahil pinakita nyo lang sakin na di kayo dpat pagak-sayahan ng oras.

Sorry, english = THANKYOU SO MUCH. Like because, you just actually proved me that i

shouldnt be wasting my time on you.

I saw an old friend of mine just now. And guess what. I saw myself too.

So from a distance, i wanna smile for those people who loved me til the end:)

THANKYOU . IM SORRY and LETS START ANEW!

THANKYOU LORD! I KNOW YOUR THE ONE BEHIND THIS HEART.

SAKUPIN MO PUSO KO PANGINOON! hehehe.

Kaya mga girls dyan, nako nako. Lets shine like NOW .

- As told by Faye. (;

8:53 PM

haha. Boo.

Mixed emotions throughout the whole fucking day.
My background song really do suit me now.

Well, i ended that to make everything okay for him.
SO I REALLY HOPE EVERYTHING'S JUST PLAIN HAPPY FOR HIM NOW.

ugh :)

I wanna hug *FIRA* - code name.
ahaha! NAPATUNAYAN KONG CUTE XA AT MATANGKAD NA NGAUN.
PUTEK KA ANTAYIN MO PAG UWI KO NG PINAS! WAHAHA. :)

actually, your not in my heart anymore. but just somewhere in my mind,
i keep longing for you :|

1:13 AM

25.3.09,

Some people are just so intolerable.
HAIS :|

I finally understand why the truth hurts.
And why people deny the truth for the sake of their own faces.
People are really selfish. Inconsiderate.
I understand that im loosing and that ive lost alot from that.
BUT PLEASE. How come your very own friends just pull you down even more?
Are those even called friends =x
Ya right. Its just like i spend time with them just
because i respect them and i know i wouldnt be this person
i am now if not because of them. So in simpler words.
Im just seeking gratitude now. JUST WHEN I GET TIRED OF THIS SITUATION ;
I'L SIMPLY FORGET EVERYONE ELSE BUT MYSELF!
Hey, ive done that to EVEN MORE BELOVED FRIENDS before.
Why cant i do it again? Its simply out of my control i know.
But why hold on to something i can just let go without efforts?

Life, sickening.
Cmon, i want the month of june to come a little faster.
Im ready for school.
Im ready to start anew.

Last time when all the troubles are around the corner,
time is so fucking fast. Too fast that i dont even have the
time to resolve anything.
But now, no troubles already and yet the time is speeding so
slow that trouble comes out by itself!

WHEN THE HELL CAN I JUST LIE BACK AND RELAX!
TO A GOD OR FAIRY WHO SEES THIS,

GIVE ME A BREAK FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

Boo. im sorry, nowhere else to spill.

1:52 AM

20.3.09,

I hear you're taking the town again..
Having a good time, with all your good time friends.
I don't think that you think of me :)
You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free.
I know that I should get on with my life..
But a life lived without you could never be right ..

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens,
long as the rivers run to the sea..
I'll never get over you, getting over me.

I try to smile so the hurt won't show ..
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go.
But the tears just won't go away :(
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay.
I know that I oughta find someone new,
but all I find is myself always thinking of you!

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens,
long as the rivers run to the sea..
I'll never get over you, getting over me.

No matter what I do,
It's like a lifetime to live through.
I can't go on like this..
(~~I need your touch~~)
You're the only one I've ever loved.

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens,
long as the rivers run to the sea..
I'll never get over you, getting over me
I'll never get over you, getting over...

And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens,
long as the rivers run to the sea..

I'll never get over you, getting over me

Never get over you .. Getting over ME.

2:03 AM

11.3.09,

facing problems alone :(

well this is what i wanted anyway..

- hope it works out.

7:44 AM

8.3.09,

i miss you :(
that's all i can ever think of .

seriously.
imissyou.
im not over you & i dont wana get over you.

i wonder if he's thinking of me like too .
i wonder if it ever crosses his mind that i so wanted this to work out but the situations just wont let me.
i wonder if he miss me.
i wonder . if he found someone else to love :(

hais. IMISSYOUUUU :(
gusto ko ng yakap mu! huhuhu :(
uuwi na ko jan.
yakapin mu kooo :( :(

3:37 PM

1.3.09,

Ten, sorry. thankyou. & for the last time in this blog,
i really love you. dont forget me. were..
well. ayaw mo ng friends. so, bsta. may pinagsamahan tayo.
bsta. magingat ka. thankyou.

at yung hug ko.
ibibigay mo un.

hmm. un na un. thankyou. iloveyou. BBYE.

10:23 PM