this saiful Bf from kfc is freaking me out :|

i sweaaar . i dont know how to explain . uh whatever !
real bf , why no more feelings . i dont get it . why my feelings faded =/

whatever.
swam today ! at there. fuckerr . i thought can go night safari .
i dont wana expect ever againnnn!

i promiseee .

whatever laaaaaa. moody moody .

tmr maybe working . with yb there at stadium :|
bbyeeee.

HELLO :)

TAG REPLIES

donut : THANKS HONEY ! MISSED .

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PEGGY: YO MY TS ! hahaha . i told you crap more you never :( LOL . haha. missed!

Jean: hey cousin ! hehs . thanks for keeping the secret about the 'fight' hehs. & find a new bf soon ! hoho joking xD

marie: you tagged me when your talking with me on the phone. PATHETIC :) missyou more!



lalala :x
boringggg . just sming with BF . LOLS .
tell you what, there's this guy in kfc named saiful too .
WAHAHA . & since the day i found out THEY have the same names, im calling him BF too!
lols. replacement for REAL BF during work time. haha :)

okay let me tell you my whole whole day today.
woke up around 9+ but realised im working later on so slept again.
was awaken by dionis, marie & fake Bf's message. lols.
was 11 + so i went outside to see what's the food.
but ef? no food -.-
looked inside the fridge, all food not nice.
wanna cook pancakes. but too lazy :X
so waited until 12:30 & i drank coffee & ate bread. lols.
bathe then bought lenses & headed to work !

at work
yeeboon & shaiful(manager) was there.
so its a fine start.
yeeboon , as usual, chatted with me about certain things. haha :)
i dont know why he's so different in KFC & at skool.
in kfc, he's like, damn OPEN to me. even showed me something :)
then in skoool, its as if were strangers. LOLS.
okay fineee. then quite short ques until yang heng came.
ended up caught in a longggg que so i became hyper - sianed - sick/ed - angry.
there's this lady, fucked up my day. caused me 6 over-rings! wtfff. mam cath not happy with me., whatever. like its my fault? wtf luhh .
okay blablabla. my mood came back lea. then goin home time ; yang heng was like.
"dont ps me laaa!" "oi dont go home leaaa!" hahaha .
i pity him. have to be left with people he dont know. sorry laaa :)

okay blabla.
walked home . i dont wana call my cousin to fetch me.
imscared i'l get used to it ; as he's alr going back :(
cant imagne life without him .
blablabla . that's it :)

tomorrow maybe goin night safari hoho xD !
hmm . i hope so. LOLS.
anyways , passed through someone's blog.
im so touched :)
to think that SHE talked about me in her blog . hahahaha :)
im sure whoever who reads this that wrote me in their blog anonymously will think im reffering to you . LOL. so sorry laa :) still say me a what . also cannot state out.
whatever. im just confused ==

hmmm hmm .
damn . my bill quite high =/
parents nagged. haiiya. they also can take from my salary. like i effing care.
okay okay :x
got to go!

i miss realfBF .
saiful bf from kfc , thinks that .... LOL . nothing.
i hope he will think i call him that for fun only .
he call me GF now . wtf :)
nevermind :)

yo :)

hmmm .

blablabla. today's thursday. but i wanna talk about wednesday first :)

hmmm .

23.07 ~ wednesday
things are as usual . i was shocked with the news that mr tay found out about the class-ponning thang. dang~ was given 1 day LRC. its okay. just one day :|
had dance after my LRC. i dont know why im not in a good mood that day..
i think cos , i so wanna be serious in warming up. i wanna be flexible like the rest. but because of my stupid laziness i just cant . ARG =|
after dance, had a 'talk' with someone.
as in , ofcourse i wouldnt insist that sihui lied right .
or maybe that point of time, you just happened to chap in my fuckingly bad mood.
i still dont get it why you must care so much about what OTHER PEOPLE thinks of US.


& as i have said, why cant you just give yourself a chance to lead? your the most suitable leader of our dance luh . as in who cant see? then because of some feedbacks of people you'll get angry & keep that anger in yourself? then what? show the temper to your very own dancers the next day. you just cant see.. you just cant! but your really putting your anger onto the rest. i look up so much on you.. so why the hell would i not respect you? you see, your not even the cause of my bad mood. but why must you associate yourself with my problems? i understand we share everything . we tell almost everything to each other. but duh ? not all in my life can be told in just one day. not even one hour. you agree right? give me time to settle myself down laa. whenever your angry, i keep on understanding you. when will it be your turn to understand me? iloveyou like fuck can . like one of my 3 best best friends? then end up you asked me whether our friendship will end or not. you dont know how i feel laa.. aiya, i dont wanna see you cry la. especially when its because of me, or dancers. please dont! im still by your side as always. i just cant show it for the meanwhile. i hope were okay...

blabla. forget about that :)
hmmm.

then today,
played basketball after skool with dionis & amber.
played with deneng awhile until chiawei,jonathan & jackson came.
dang your a pro i tell you . :]
ahblabla. then the rest of 3b2 boys came, snatch our ball & played. wtf =/
haha. while their playing, me & dionis played with laisoon awhile.
then the last game was with hong kiap they all..

bus-ed home with dionis. & that's for today.

i wonder what's gonna be dance tomorrow ~
i know it'll be difficult. dont worry. im used to it :D

hello !

finally found a perfect time for my blogging :)

hmm hmm.

i pon skool today. like again?
ayas, cos.. the clasroom is not that good already luh.
i dont like the new seating plan. really .. i dont know why..
and, too much is happening already lor . between the girls. i cant stand it !
i just hope they all would realize how difficult it it to find a TRUE FRIEND.
its like, people so wanna have one, then them .. they already have it, & yet they let go of them so easily? but i understand them ba.. i just want everyone to be happy.

okay okay. UPDATING TIME!

thursay 17.07
i finished skool at 12 something, as the last two period is MT. so i thought of an idea, sihui wanna cut hair maa. then LPK have one good salon.. so i asked her to early depart ! so yea, we managed to have a good act & we excaped from skool! hahah.
i pretend-ed to be her aunty. nice one hor? :D :D
then after pei-ing her cut hair, we ate at KFC. she wants a chicken maa. haha..
err, went to arcade awhile, then went up to the highest floor look around.
& guess what ! i left my handphone SOMEWHEReeeee. then i think think think ..
its at the arcade there! machine thingy. we chiong to that stupid machine then run run run.. wa heng its there okayyy! then hor, we wearing uniform maa...
people there thought we ran cos we wanna escape from them! LOL. so they also ran to catch us & say "sorryy.. cannot play with uniform" haha LOL righhht xD
okay done. then disiao some guy at GYM's place there. he was damn entertained okay. haha:) that's it. i went to work & she bus-ed home.

friday 18.07
i pon the last two period ~ which is maths. deneng & me happily walked out, knowing that we also wont kana.. haha! i pei-ed marie & sihui to saw sh's skirt.
slacked at the backstage there until dance time !! :D
after my dance, receieved a call from my manager. asked me to work.. then i was like.. "im still in skool? if you want i can reach there by 7" .. then ya, he agreed ba.. so blablabla :)
work work work.. pugas sucks okay. he dont knw anything at all. LOLS.
okay that's it. my cousin fetch me then went home!

saturday 19.07
i swear i cant even move the morning i woke up! damn. tired laaa. imagine dancing then working? walauuss =/
but no choice, i gave roster already. hahas! so worked. quite fun ba.. cos mam cath is there! i swear i love herrrrr. she's a typical big sister that loves to say the word 'fucker' hahaha :)
whatever. been with yang heng as were the only cashier there after 12 am!
then cabbed with him home. but before that, bought oreo mcflurry first.
& guess what . we damn boliao go inside mcdonalds wearing KFC uniform ! haha okay blabla. reahced home around 3 am ! then crapped with marie then sleep :)

sunday 20.07
worked again . LOLS. my world rotating in kfc hor? =/
hmm .. i forgot what happned alr. haha. not that memorable!
but my night was damn ruined. cos of him! i wanna leave alr, still show me that emo face. WTF him ! =/
hahaha. lols nothing luhh .
had a hard time in sleeping ~ but still make it for skool.

yesterday 21.07
blablabla :)
played basketball for PE. haha.. that;s all i remmber!
had LRC then .. bored.. smsed with BF the whole day!
i dont wana msge him today laa. later we sian until each other :) ahaha!
okay that's all .

then i pon skool todayyyyyyyy .
im sure mr tay would be chasing me again :)
for LETTER or MC . like as if i would bother go take MC. haha!
bbyeeee :)

please miss me .
lalalaloves x3.

tired .

no mood.

post my everyday life next time .

thanks.

please bear with whatever atitude il show.

HELLO HELLO ! :D

today's so freaking randommmm.

wahhaas. FIRSTLY , there was this incredible morning i had. lols. & it happened with my fucker baby CHERYL :)
guess what . we were late , but not to metion, WE TRIED NOT TO BE LATEEE. hahaha.
as in , one whole bunch of mjr-ians were at that particular spot infront
of the main entrance to skool. then, mrs poh usually stands there.
this morning, she wasnt there! so an idea popped out in my head.
go force-open the gate & run in ! hahaha
so me & cheryl did it . & guess what? the whole bunch of people behind us followed! hahaha. we all were like mad cows running for our lives -.-
i dont knw. its just so funny for a morning. haha. nice start of day uh?

then in class, things got funnier.
i had this 'horny-pervert-disease' ; well i guess i got it from tan yeeboon since he always talks about that when were tog? lols.
so yea, one day, i saw a very very cute panty liner :D
so i kept in in my pencil box from that day onwards.
& i think i only showed it to deneng & bryan so far.
but today ? HAHAHAHA :D
kenneth yong! he freaking make my day can.
i showed him the pad, or rather liner, then ... he got so interested
until he asked me how do girls wear it .
hahaha :)
i dont knw if you girls will understand, but this is what he said.
"the sticky part is the one you stick on the 'thing' right?!"
HAHAHAHA. i was like, stunned for a little moment then i went laughing & laughing & laughing. i guess he didnt get it why i laught.
so i told him, ...

WAIT ! dont anyhow think ar. aya i dont carre. this is what i really said. haha.

"you knw girls got hair there right? then if you stick it at that part? imagine how we are gonna feel if we take it out?!!"

then he was like .. "huh?" then goes on hhahahahahahahah. until hahahahaha.
LOLS LOLS.
it was really funny laaaa. yea right i cant get over i know. hahahaha.

whatever :)
then tats all.

i so love 2 charming boys nowww. hahaha.
not in my class okay ! so have to make effort to see them. LOLS :P

im gonna work tmr.
5-10 pm at LPK . wan a good service? be there :)

tats all bbye !

hmmmmmm :(

moody today. damn it can.
im such a different person today. i promise!
keep thinking about #1 - family prob .. #2 - cant say out ba, but its serious..
so im sorry for all i offended / shouted at / hit-tted / diao-ed / ya tats all.

really soryyyy okay? i dont knw who you all are. i wanna forget this fucking day.
not very nice ?

but i patched with a friend today. & im glad. i hope that both of us wont be in war agen :)

okay tats all .
agen im sorry .

played baskteball today for like .. the whole day?

~ P.E time
~ after skool
~ after LRC

LOLS. i wanna learn how tuh play. i find it a way of relieving stress .
seriously, i wanna learn :)

whatever. no mood lea. dont know why. wanna sleep it out .

i really love the girls in my class , well , SOMETIMES.
yea okay bbye .

i think the feeling is slowly coming back. but dont worry. im used to acting .

HELLOS people :)

worked at LPK today. wahahas.

super duper fun.. saiful boyfriend is there, dennis favourite, haziq bestfriend, & 2 malay bitches :) just right for my mood. hahaha !

then got this funny lady, she ordered & everything, then said bye then left?
i was like.. "EXCUSE ME!!" hahaha . then she turned back & said, "what? i paid already!" then i said "ya & you dont wanna take your order?" hahahahhaha! she was so paiseh okay. hahah. who ask her so bitchy. LOLS. serve her right :)

then saw kaixun they all there.
but they didnt notice me. haha!

then jonathan & nicholas dropped by there too :D
then about 2 hours later, yujie, clive, vince, shannon, zhanrong wnet there too! they were outside KFC. then i saw them.. so i went out & shout "OI!" haha. then clive was like.. "EI FAYE LEA!!" hahaha.
then they went in by things. I GAVE THEM FREE FOOD HOR ! you boys must repay okay. haha :D lols joking joking .

then, what else. i was hurt by 2 reason today.
firstly, he like somebody :(
2nd, he .. took me out in something.

yea okay, let me get over it . DAMN :(

but im really happy!
hope can wake up tomorrow . 8:30 am, basketball with friends ~

i cant believe its already gonna be 3 am soon. time flies men =/

KFC-ians ARE LOVED :)

i miss 3b1. a lil.



anyways, survey here. lemme answer it. bored!

1) Happy with life ?
: i can be happier. i know that .

2) From your experience in life , any advices ?
: dont expect too much, dont do things you'll regret later on. DONT BE AFRAID TO TAKE RISKS :)

3) Long John Silver or Macdonald ?
: both ! :) BUT KFC BEST ., lols?

4) Whats on your mind currently ?
: do i like who? lols .

5) Any craving ?
: cheese cake please!

6) If you have the opportunity to act in a film , what kind of character would it be ?
: the sad one ~

8) Have you ever played timer before ?
: not exactly.

9) Do you love your name ?
: the 'faye' & the 'fairy' :)

10) Are you mixed ?
: i dont think so.

11) Any siblings/cousins staying at other country ?
: naaah. i dont know. haha0

12)Favourite shape and colour ?
: heart , purple & black.

13) Have ever thought that you are useless ?
: uhm yea.

14) Ever been admitted to the hospital ?
: dengue, years back.

15) Any favourite cartoon character ?
: no. seriously no .

16) What do you want to buy currently ?
: cheese cakeeeeeeee.

18) You consider yourself wild ?
: depends upon with who im with.

19) Favourite word used often:
: FUCKYOULA & thankyou & crazy & whatever :)

20) When you are being scolded by teacher , what is the sentence that you say ?
: 'orh' or 'huh? sorry sorry' hahaha.

21) Tea or Milo ?
: milo . cold or hot :)

22) Are you vulnerable ?
: i dont know how to explain vulnerable ; but i think i am?

23) Good in what subjects ?
: english , maths , f & n , i only passed these 3. so i said these. okay?

24) Last text from ?
: err, havent check.

25) Birthday on ?
: march 12 . i want cheese cakes pleaaase! :)

26) Waiting for ?
: him . christmas . end of each day.

27) Going anywhere on June hols ?
: over-ed =/

28) Sweets or chocolates ?
: Chocolates !!!!

29) Favourite place to eat ice-cream
: dont know. LOLS. mcdonalds? haha. random.

32) Bath how many times a day ?
: depends.

33) Favourite radio station ?
: 98.7 !

34) How old will u be in 15 years time ?
: 30 .

35 ) Town or esplanade ?
: uh? :x

36) Want to get rid off ?
: some people. my blurred vision :(

37) Spring or summer ?
: summer.

38) Girls , what do you think of them ?
: 3 types ; LOYAL ones, BITHCY ones, BITCHY BUT LOYAL ones :)

39)Sociable?
: i think .

40) Nature-lovable person ?
: naa.

41) What makes u think back to your childhood times ?
: whatever happened that can make me recall something?

42) Going anywhere next saturday ?
: work?

43) In love right now ?
: i am always inlove :)

44) Which is better to you , single or in relationship ?
: liking someone.. its the best feeling :)

45) Current mood ?
: neutral.

47) If you were to ask the world to stop smthg what could it be ?
: my friends or relatives from dying ?

48) Last talked to - on the phone?
: marie.

49) Favourite person to talk to?
: depends. but seriously, tongshan? hazel? janet? dont know alr.

50) What are the best thing to do in life ?
: i havent find out yet, but i think , its to love :)

sometimes, you get to the point when all you can say is ; im done trying.

this is what's written on my every post .

hais didnt went skool today ?
im too lazy . & had faver!
but ofcourse, lazy means no MC. slept the whole day. dont bother to see that stupid doctor . parent's letter will do anyway. haha!

hmm hmm .. i miss playing baskteball ? hais random! :)

takecare everyone !

i need to rest my emotions.

everything is just too much.
im hating everybody around me.
im getting sick of being blamed, seen, watched, JUDGED.

i need to let myself breakdown.
i want to see myself being strong, having to overcome EVERYTHING.

im in a world where i dont know anybody at all.
im tired of fooling myself that i belong ; yet inside of me, i know i dont.

im sick of this mask on my face.
i badly wanna take it out. i badly want to be true!

why do people who work more, seem to be less happy?
but those who dont put in effort at all are very happy?
why do i always ask the same things yet i dont get any answer?
why cant people understand that once in awhile, people get tired!
why must the world moving around me seem to stop , to move , without me?

call me EMO , LAME , SHIT , FUCKER , anything! im sick of all that.
everybody just dont get it.
so what if im laughing so loud, smiling at people always,
& cracking jokes here & there,
do that means im fine? hell no man.

& what hurts the most is whenever i lie down on my bed,
every night, that's when everything flash backs in.
im scared to close my eyes, im scared to sleep without talking to people.
& i keep thinking of what will happen, what had i done wrong &
what should i do next.
its not fun . its not very fun . its tiring . sickening .
there's too much inside of me that i need to let go!
no one is to blame ; but i cant help but get mad at certain people.

if you see me alone, quiet & restless at one corner,
you'l ask if im okay or what happened earlier .
& what do you expect me to say?
the truth? & what . get laughed at by you? no thanks .


i know there are some people who fakes people & themselves like , always?
dont end up like me! while there's still time, please. please be true.
im sure you wouldnt want to wake up one day & be surprised to see yourself ;
not being you anymore.
& when that happened, your emotions will just go on ABNORMALLY.
i cant find myself now! im over-seeing things. would you want that?

hell god i really wanna go out for atleast 3 days. just by myself!
i cant find FAYE anymore :( .. sorry for being emo :( just stop
giving me more troubles first? i'l promise to bring back myself .

but for now, just allow me to let myself FALL . im willing . im willing to stand up again . but it will take time.


& when i open my eyes, that's when everything starts. but why cant it just end when i close my eyes?!


MARIE ! thanks for the ocmpany, i appreciate it so much. please let me repay you!! :) really thank you . i dont know what to say :)

SUCESS!

found a blogskin :)

i'l edit it when i have the time. something sucks in it .

but please, its nice okay :)

yea tats all.
skool today was not that fun, practiced retro after skool.
i hope tmr's dance wiwll be okayy :x

why the hell did you go back for? i was already so happy when you were gone!

i dont know what im feeling ~

its so overly strange. blogskin needa be changed. its not me anymore.
give me 30 mins from now. i'l change my effing skin!

hey guys :)

im quite moody these days..
no idea why?

hmm.. whatever ! i really love everyone in KFC. except atleast 2-3 loyal dogs. & 2 bitches. haha :D

AND PLEASE! WHOEVER IS BOLIAO ENOUGH TO LEAVE MY NUMBER INSIDE BUS CHAIRS, CAN YOU FUCKING GET A LIFE??! ITS NOT CUTE OKAY! WANT TUH HATE ME, HATE ME UNTIL YOU WANT ME TO HAVE MORE FRIENDS? LOL? ITS LIKE, SO MANY NUMBERS CALL ME & MISCALLS ME! ITS SO IRRITATING OK! I CAN BEFRIEND WITH THEM, BUT WHOEVER YOU ARE, IM NOT LIKE YOU WHO GIVES NUMBER ANYHOW. LIKE SOME CHEAP CHIKEN OR GIGALO ALONG GEYLANG WAY. LOLS. YOU SUCK MEN. STOP IT OKAY. ITS A PERSON WHO TAKES BUS 197 . I TELL YOU! IM CURSING YOUUUUUUU!! arrrrrg!!!

haiiss. okay. anger released! haha :D

that's it. my world is revolving in KFC now. im obsessed. bbye!

where are all of you when i needed you guys most? nobody even noticed im gone. now i know. nobody truly cares for me.. im not appreciated. its okay.. i wont ever be there for anybody too. im just fooling myself . 3b1 is not really a priority to me now . but i hope things can change. cos i really love you people a lot .

hello .

LOLS. kinda moody now ? going tuh 1 am already!

& imagine, im still eyes-wide-opened even though this day WAS & SURE WAS a very very tiring day. firstly, i woke up in the morning ~ going tuh 7 am already!
WTH right! so i rushed here & there , then ran tuh take a cab. & plus wasting 6 bucks is not a joke okay? so that also stressed me out. wahaha. hmm, then in skool.. my class was hyper luh. especially english period? it was like, group by group we keep on laughing & stuffs. hmm , bryan, eldon, peifang, deneng, darren &(sleeping) kenneth, these people rally made my day? haha. we exchange dont know what kind of jokes. LOLS ? haha!
after reccess, had food practical . aiyas, its nothing interesting actually, just that, like what firhan told me, when adrian came back ; the whole class becomes a mad class. haha:)
then , after skool : watched a match which made me realised who the great bb players are in my class! hehs. then i also anyhow playplay with them.. hahaha.. damn embarassing! kenneth & deneng keep on laughing at me =.=
haiyas. im going tuh train okay please!! GRR.
then after that, rushed home as my cousin & me needa rebook his ticket at orchard for going back my country. blablabla! then , wakao. we like, walked from singapore to america? wahahha. as in, aiya, very complicated :D
dont wana say! after orchard, went all the way tuh boon keng mrt there.. to redeem my EZ LINK ! hahas. some indian men wanna beat my cousin up, then surprisingly, i shouted at them & acted cool ; like as if im the leader of all gangs in SG. haha. then thay shout shout but walked away! ahahha! poor cousin ~ dont knw hw tuh speak english that much, so he didnt managed tuh talk back.. but hor, he was really damn enthu to fight with those indians. stupid !
then went tuh leisure park.. wanna see who's the manager , it was pugas =.=
i dont really like him , so went tuh kallang KFC. mam jean & sir janaka was there! whahaa :) crap crap crap a bit with them, then jiu went home lea:)

this day was damn long. its as if 3 days had gone . LOLS :)

yea & i met another new friend. i hope hope hope ; that .. something will came out !haaha. dont wana say :)

waaaa. im sleepy already! =.=
i miss working damn much. tomorrow, i still have a dance tuh attend. damn it =/
i dont get tuh stay at home that much anymore ! imissthatlife :(

uh okay okay. bye people takecare!

i thought im gonna be happy, but instead, you brought back the darker part of my life. why should i suffer ? & do you even care ? plus some girls are so stupid. you dont know your hurting your very own friend. but nah, maybe im just overly re-acting to everything. uh, yea. i hope...

hey.

didnt make it for skool today! :x
lazy, headache, wanna rest, & i dont know. im scared .. i dont know what im scared of, there's just this feeling last night that made me felt as if so many people hate me. dont know laaaa ==
until now, i feel scared! WTH. why uh. faye are you mad?

uh whatever. im going to skool tomorrow. & that's for sure!
i hope i'l meet someone who will force me tuh study. no inspiration leea. =/

have dance tomorrow. hope LRC will release me early :)

& i wanna change blogskin.. i'l do it when i have the time!

takecare .