7.34 am now ! & im very moody :x


Hmm, i feel very packed up. er, i dont know if i used that word correctly.
You know when your happy , but your afraid to be?
Cos all good things comes to an end anyway ~
I just want to enjoy my remaining days in singapore .
With the correct people ofcourse .
I said this before, if you suddenly realised i faded away from you life, dont ever ever blame me.

Okay, basically i miss alot of things.
i miss manjusri . i miss 3b1 actually ~
i dont like it when i miss alot of people . cos i can go crazy =x
I want to go back to the days when ... there's a cheryl. there's a jonathan.
there's a deneng. there's tiffany they all. there's meimei they all. & there's marie & sihui .
you know those days when the ones you loved most are by your side ,
while those you love as equal, are not exactly there but you know they still love you?
THAT . that is what i want to feel for so long .

AND . .
Im not happy with my life . That's the truth .
Im not inlove , im not ready to be inlove.
Ha. so if charles read this he'll be acting strange again .
now im hoping for your 2 weeks out-of-singapore .
atleast i can have my own personal time first , more time & space to think
if im ready for a relationship with you .


hais ~
how come i dont know what i want? how come im afraid to make decisions?
how come im very scared of facing reality by myself?
& how come i just cant be satisfied .


CAN SOMEONE BRING ME TO SOMEWHERE , SOMEWHERE THAT I CAN FEEL THERE'S ONLY ME & YOU ?(whoever the person is*) CAN ANYONE DO THAT FOR ME ? :(
I JUST WANT TO THINK . TO BREATHE . TO SEE MYSELF . TO RELAX? SAY ME PATHETIC , WELL MY LIFE IS REALLY PATHETIC. I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE! YOU DONT HAVE TO TALK , YOU DONT HAVE TO LISTEN , JUST BE WITH ME AND SHUTTUP. THAT WILL DO. JUST ANYONE , BRING ME THERE . I'LL FOLLOW.


Charles ian ,
Sometimes, the ones that you love dontfeel the same way you do.
and it hurts you badly that it'll get your heart weak .
But mhine, You Can Never Give Up On LOVE.

Cheryl ,
Takes time to find someone like what you want. I havent found it either what . So lets just stick to each other's side uh. Aya, we both know every good thing will be over ; but lets prove to the world our friendship is an exception. Stay put (:

Patrick ,
Thank you. I swear im so thankful to meet you ! Fuxcks, the best guy friend. Even better than any guy friend i met . Stay the same please. I need you okay. We'll find your girl soon ~

Anyone else reading my blog ,
YOU! yes you . If you want something in your life,
look for it! dont sit down & wait for heaven to drop it on you.
Learn from my mistakes lah , take every opportunity you have.
There might not be a second chance.

Cos in the end, it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years.


Bullshitted ended at 8.07 am .
imma sleep now , meeting patrick they all later ~
please let this be a good day. POOf.

thanks yeeboon.

PEOPLE! WEEE! another fabulous escape (:

TAG REPLIES.

to YANG : lol. your really damn random.
to MATT:D : hello matilda! hows you & feihan? :D
to ZHIXIANG : haha! are they? lols. i think their kinda pressured cos its their first time in the cc. haha. Looking foward to the next time !
to PEIFANG : haha, you saw me alrdy. even hugged me! but bottomline. still missyou:D
to JEANCOUSIN : wait me up in dance ; i'l appear from nowhere. haha. missyou too lea!

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okay, summary of the story : i ran away from home yesterday. slept at cheryl's.
talked to dad & mom last night while at cheryl's . dad gave me so much explanations, which i really appreciate & understand. now , i need the time to apply & absorb it even more ~

okay, last night cried a lot. like for one whole hour? that's while talking to my dad. & i swear i want ian to be at my side that time ! its like, super wtf.
okay, talked to patrick for the rest of the night ~
atleast he made me laugh & stuff (:
plus cheryl's friend, eugene. hahaha. super entertain me ! i thank you man.
I know patrick heard everything i said. haha, now he knows the other side of me :D

hmmmm. whut else, oh. & im suppose to run away totally from home.
but today was my bro's bday. so yea, i have no choice but to go back.
left cheryl's house at around 4 plus.
met jake & patrick . went to cc, as they wanted to play a little match.
well well, its just the two of them.
so, haha. just played 3 matched with xiang they all ~
they wanted to stay longer but, i think the rule "i go they go" was there.
So, have to go back home before 6.30 pm.
so yea, went off with jake & patrick.
Thanks for sending me homeeee :D

Okay! now everything after i reached my house,
will be blogged down tomorrow.
im actually being rushed down by ian now! as ive said,
that idiot is grounded. so, he's taking his life risk
to be online & demanded me to post.
HAHAHA (:

okay lah , i know you just want me to say iloveyou lor .
HAHA! joking (:

but yes, im scared of being too happy. i know you understand. lets just take things slowly. were almost there arent we? hmm . mahal nman tlga kita e.

PICS TOMORROW! FOR BRO'S BDAY. TAKECARE EVERYONE (:

My life is messed up now but im super happy , cos for once in my life. I messed up & got tired but my friends are there for me. Well charles? He's grounded! Ha! I needed you most last night, but i think its fate that i leaned on to Patrick & Cheryl instead. That's okay. Im always the one understanding & listening anyway. I guess only time can tell if were really meant to be together. Cos as what i had experienced , I can straight away tell if i want to be with a guy. I didnt felt that for you at instances i should. But hey, i love you & your important to me. So, time answers all ba..


So, i think i now believe that one way of knowing that you love someone, is by realizing, it might be lost.

& that when you see yourself not caring anymore, not listening to anything, not knowing what to do, what you want, who to love, how to love, how to breathe , how to face anyone, that's because.. your done trying. your too tired .

My uncle is right? ~ The faster you walk, the faster you trip.
So i'l walk slowly? Or is there such a choice to RUN SLOWLY?
cause time flies so fast , & im still left behind.

YO YO YO! :D :D :D

im sooooo super happy now , just that "2b" probs. aside from that,
nothing le (:

Okay, firstly .. I GOT PROMOTED TO SEC 4!
HAHAHA . im super happy kkkkkkkkkk :D
Yaya, & another one, Promoted into a job, same as Cheryl! YEA MAN! haha.

Weeets, let me blog about yesterday ;

First, met Cheryl in the morning . walked to aljunied & took bus 51?
Yea. Then dropped at Eunos mrt to take 63 to ubi (:
Saw the new school, no "my school is here" feelings sia. =x

Okay, & then went to Yijie's house to take something.
Then bus-ed to Eunos inter to go for a job interview.
Which accepted us JUST TONIGHT! hahahaha.
WOO! & then job inter done.
Bus-ed again to TM . passed something to someone.
Then walked inside the mall & i bought an angklet .
errr . some more what uh , OH! played that dance thingy on TM's timezone.
hahahaha! super paiseh at first , but cooler feeling after (:

CHERYL! WE SHALL BE PRO ON THAT . haha. loveyou girrrrrl .

hmm , then me & cheryl ate at cafe cartel (:
YUMMY K!
lols. & then , i met charles ian & patrick .
Marc came over too .
Slacked in patrick's house.
WOOOT . being the only girl in the group have both
Pros & Cons.
So dhale , cham , alyssa , anette. whoever. PLEASE COME :X

WEEEEEEEETS!
thanks chiawei & yijie.
you both know what it is for ~

Ian , ive nothing else to say but the same old thing. Sorry & iloveyou (:

3 am in the morning post? ha! i havent done that for a long time. my post date, minus one please.

ANOTHER SUPER LONG DAY!
okay, very tiring + sickening + shouldnt-happen-at-all day! =x

First, met Cheryl in the morning . around 11 am plus ba.
& thens, was with her until around 5 plus .
things that happened while i was with cheryl, is confidential. not for someone to read. thanks.
but one thing for sure, we felt cheated + wasted + .. dont know! pathetic luh! =x

K, then met Charles, Patrick & Marc at lavender mrt.
cheryl, i know your super pang-seh-ed . wont happen again , but if you can only understand what we all are talking about , you'll laugh nonstop!
& yea, took 197 to purposely drop cheryl at her house .
then left me , patrick & charles.
the 3 of us bus-ed down to east coast , like again.
& met jake at mac's .
Jake! saw you already. like finally. Hmm, were good friends (:

Ate our dinner there & then, went out of macdonalds & all the troubles started.
I HATE IT K! THE FEELING OF BEING USELESS & EVERYTHING ! STUPID PARK RANGERS! OR WHATEVER YOU CALL THEM LUH, I HOPE THEY GO DIE NOW HOHH !@#@!#$~!@
200 bucks
lai lai ! i need you, come to me now. -.-
CHERYL I NEED YOUR HELP UHH . hope you dont tell anyone about this.
then yea, the rest are all ecp things.
Dont know, lazy le luh. i want to go to sleep K .

Ian, were not even together yet ! But look at what were going through & what we risk-ed for each other already. I appreciate you even more now . I dont think i can live on without you anymore ~
Thanks , Sorry , & Iloveyou .


let me just wait for the perfect timing . We'll be together soon. Please be patient.

I think Cheryl will kill me if she finds out that im down here doing surveys. HAHAHA!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
- LOLS! break me? let me see, if that would be ian, no. i dont want. haha.
Ps, were not together yet. thanks.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- hmm, live a happy life in SG without studying? haha.

3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
- i dont think far (:

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead you?
- YES :(

5. What's your ideal lover like?
- Someone like Ian , well except his height. haha.

6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or Being loved by someone?
- Both . it doesnt matter, you experience love either one way or another.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Ha! if i really really love the person, im willing to wait like .. a few years (:
But i'l get involved in relationships . Just that i still love him . haha.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Hmm, like him secretly first. i dont wanna be a bitch & steal some other bitch's bf.

9. Is there anything that had made you unhappy these days?
- not really, everything's fine. Mum nags maybe?

10. Is being tagged fun?
- Yea .

11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- I dont know actually.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- Family. Mom. Grandparents. Cheryl. well i said the most .

13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- Dont know.

14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
- Well, in the future, rich & single. But for now, married but poor.

15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
- Check my hp .

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Not really all, i do get carried away sometimes, but i know my limit once i realised it.

17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one i can be together with .

18. What type of friends do you like?
- Cheryl .

19. What types of friends do you dislike?
- Bitches, not true , those you just play play scold then will come kaobei you till you dont know you did what. blablabla. Cheryl is my only friend you know (:
The rest is Charles ian they all liaozx. hahaha.

YO! I JUST HOMED! & its 11.50 pm now!

sweeeet (:
i never felt this kind of happiness for a long time already.
THANKS CHARLES IAN . THANKS PATRICK . THANKS MARC . THANKS ANTONETTE & DHALE . THANKS RON . THANKS CHAM & KATELYN . THANKS IAN & ALAY . THANKS JAKE .

haha! well, as what ian said, THE LIST AINT COMPLETE YET K! alot more to meet (:

Okay, let me blog down about TODAY <3

woke up around 11 am + ,
saw ian & patrick's messages. I was actually suppose to meet dhale & tonette. But planned change to meeting patrick at aljunied mrt .
So yea, met patrick then charles came.
They smoke -.- Okay, WE smoked. LOLS. but i took one stick nia K!
Charles also dont let me !
& then & then , went to ECP to meet dhale & tonnete.
So, girl talk awhile for the 3 of us. Meeting-each-other point. lols.
& then, Marc & Ron came .
follwed by Cham & Katelyn .
Jake ! IDIOTZZXX. when will you ever show yourself to me uh! -.-
K, so group completed! HAHA . slacked around ecp awhile .
then went to parkway , slacked again . LOLS, my group is cool okay!

SO VERY THE NOT SINGAPOREANS . LOL! SORRY , I LOVE THIS GROUP. DONT BLAME ME IF YOU SUDDENLY REALISED I ALREADY FADED AWAY FROM YOUR LIFE .

then, went to marine parade cc . they played ball . SIBEI PRO . LOLS.
shall intro them to jiahui , xiang they all. but not now yea? i dont want
any clashes of friendships! XIANG! i know your reading this, tell
me what you think . haha ((:
& then, met ian & alay there . With some more people i dont know the names liaozx.
so, watched them play ball with tonette & then , shoot a few . haha.
some more?
i have a walk to remember tonight k! Charles ian, windy uh? haha.
Sorry for waiting . Sorry . Im trying my best to work this out .
I want this to work out. Believe me i do . Your my crush lea (:
Hmmm, whut else? that's all bah .
then left mpcc around 11+ then bus-ed with Patrick, Ron, Charles ian & Marc.
Okay, dropped down to my place. THey pei-ed me go to MCC .
to take my damn shoe -.-
Super Dark! LOLS .
just when i remembered jiajun they all. THEY USED TO BE the ones with me. Well okay, i think im much happier now . Thank God i found them uh? :D
And then, those 4 guys sent me home first . Sorry for the trouble !
That made Charles ian & Marc walked all the way home -.-
SORRY SORRRY! next time luh , i owe you guys k!
& Patrick and ron , HAHA. i dont know you all gone where alrdy. Hope you all
reach home soon .

END OF THE DAY! FOR ME ! DAD DIDNT SCOLD , MUM IS PROUD THAT I MET TONNET'S MOM . VERY HAPPY K! :D :D

but still, i dont wanna be too happy. haha, im alrdy tired of being hurt just because i was too happy. im learning k! im applying! Ive grown up. So shuttup & dont comment me . I no longer exist in the world i used to live with last time.
I found my real friends . Those that im looking for since sec one.
Now that i found them ., Now that i found charles ian , i wont let them go .

TIRED ALRDY . later still have conference going on with some people. UHH .
i shall end my post here ? Take care guys. Im still Faye . Just moving on a different world. Sorry for those im missing out . But again, im not the one to blame.

GOODNIGGHT!!


hello ian . your my crush uh (: haha . thanks for today . im happy . hope you are too . Sorry for the moody part of the day . i'l try my best to control next time. for now, please dont think so much . I hate you for thinking too much -.-
there's nothing to think & worry about. WERE OKAY . WERE COOL . WERE TAKING STEPS SLOWLY. napagusapan nman na ntin to e , kaya ntin yan. happy waiting ! :D joke .

HELLO ! i changed my blogskin :D

okay, i swear its kinda lame to put back your OLD blogskin but,
i cannot find any other ones that will suit my mood can =x
hmms, nothing really much about me.
well, kinda happy cause im slowly getting answers to my questions.
Still strong with Gf cheryl ; & my .. friend Charles Ian (: .

K . Yesterday was a fabulous escape! i shall not talk about that.
HAHA. but it was goooooood :D

anyway, my blogsong changed. lyrics here.
Chian, for you k <3



I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful i found you.

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
Don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you (I'm thanking you)
I was lost lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you.

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
That we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I found you
I'm lost lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you .

That's all ! Goodnight ! :D

faye! how dumb can you get? BE OVER IT . you know who to love & who to be together with . So STOP thinking its him ! COS IT JUST RESEMBLES THAT GUY.

im going crazy =x

Fine, i dont want my blog to be that dead, so here's a survey. & something about someone (:


Do you wear a ring on your finger?
- Sometimes .

Where are you right now?
- home , more precisely at kitchen .

What are you doing?
- Survey, talking to Charles Ian (:

Who was your last text message from?
- Charles Ian .

Do you miss anyone right now?
- Deneng.

Do you like the song 'I Kissed A Girl' by Katy Perry?
- Yea, kinda cool.

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you?
- depends, but i dont usually grab other people's hands for my probs.

What's the last kind of soup you ate?
- forgot :x

Currently have a sunburn?
- nahs .

Could you eat nothing but grilled cheese for a week straight?
- Errrr, if there's no choice .

Who is the last person you hung out with?
- Cheryl ?

Have your parents told you that you couldn't hang out with a certain person?
- Yea.

Would you rather shave your head or dye your hair bright orange?
- WWTF , er, obviously dye -.-

Could you last an hour without talking?
- NOO .

When is the next time you'll talk to the person you like or love?
- maybe tonight ? wait, do i like him?

What are you listening to right now?
- because of you - kyla.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
- Thought of, but nahs.

Have any interesting conversations lately?
- yea, 6 straight hours with Charles Ian .

What are some lyrics from the song your listening to?
- Lets stop & talk awhile? lols.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
- yes.

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
- YES. !@#@#$~!@!

Has anyone hurt or betrayed you recently?
- not really .

Do you enjoy life?
- no.


HELLOS!

you know you know you know , i met someone totally same as me !
he's like, have the same experiences & situations gone through as me.
Charles ian (:
okay i dont know if i like him yet.
but i know im glad that i met him . hmm, what's there to expect? NOTHING.

that's all ! RETEST TOMORROW!
im off to study (:

IM VERY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING.

i seriously wanted to post about the past few days.
but yea, ive no mood? you know when i open my blogspot ?
i just cant get myself to click the 'new post' tab .
i dont know why either .
im very fucked up now. because of my little brother .
im not willing to become a big sister to him.
i repeat, im not willing at all.
if he atleast knows how to takecare of himself & do his stuffs by himself,
i can help him out more.
but fuck? he dont know a single shit.
he only know how to fuck my day upside down everyday!
THAT'S WHY I DONT WANNA GO HOME!
with this kind of bro , with parents not talking,
with mom's nags , her unreasonable commands.
dad's expectations , dad's assignments.
I CANNOT DO ALL THOSE.
i had enough le . i so wanna run away from everything .
CHERYL? i can answer your question now .
then why would you want to back to your country?!"
BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A GOOD DAUGHTER .
I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A RESPONSIBLE BIG SISTER .
atleast there, in my hometown.
i just have to worry about my studies. nothing else.
cause all i have to do is wake up, go home & prepare for the next
day. things that will bother me , will be in school anyway.
not at home.
i dont even think mine is called home .

tired . confused . just dont give me anymore troubles.
you have to think of me too .

WAIT UP FOR MY POST TODAY K!

i just needa do something first (:

COME BACK NEXT TIME & READ MY POST AH! HAHAHA.

HELLO BOYS & GIRLS !

haha , yozz. today was indeed a very very long day (:
hmm, i woke up so late . sian, but knowing that the time is very late alrdy,
i still slowly moved here & there. haha!
well , typical faye mah :x
okay, & then & then, bus-ed to school, was around 5-8 mins late for mrs.tan's lesson nia ba .
& you know, mrs.tan was soooo good can! LOL, i started fooling around,
shouting & demanding her to write good "remarks" about me & cheryl
in our monitoring file .
& she really did! and since cheryl followed my nags, she got good remarks too! haha!
LOLS. sibei lucky ^^
okay, english time, played hang-man with , boys vs. girls.
AND GUESS WHO CONFIDENTLY SUGGESTED THE GAME? me! lols.
SUPER XIA SUAY CAN! imagine, im so confident i'l beat yeeboon & bryan. but end up, the score was 8-2 . they won! WAA. lols, stupid big-brain yeeboon!
hahaha :)
reccess , went down to mama shop like AGAIN , then met laisoon there.
went back to school & sat down with edzuan, weiliang & their 2 other boyfriends.
super funny being with them cans! haha. especially edzuan.
wakakak. plus cheryl kana suaned by andy like hell sia =x
she super duper angry & her bomb exploded. she even wanted to throw
one big chair on andy! hahaha! siaozhabor! & then, end up she threw my bandung.
hahahahaha XD
okay whatever, lots of laughter K!
mother tongue time, peifang , cheryl & dana helped me tie my hair up :)
thank you girls <3 !
then maths time, went to lab for maths. did a stupid quiz =x
okay whatever that, then headed to my home to get clothes.
then to CHERYL's . ate lunch there, then went to tiong bahru for an interview :D
hope we'll be chosen k?
okay after that, actually wanted to try another interview at MacPherson.
but hoh, we dont know how to go there -.-
as in , the bus stops dont have lei .
so took 10 out of nothing, dropped at tanjong katong
to take another bus towards MacPherson, & dang, we dont even know
what time 40 will come laah. bought a donut awhile. waited & waited.
no 40 come. STUPIDXZX. we went there just to purchase a donut ah? lol.
decided to take a look at mcc as we actually
promised zhixiang we'll go down . haha :)
so yea we did , played a few matches! CHERYL is really pro in shooting lah.
but i also improved k! last time, im so concious about
how i look , but now, play means play! haha !
LOL. then, cooled down awhile then dropped by hawker to buy some food
& homed.

WOO! super long day but fun!
kana scolded by mom though~
but its okay , i can always return what she lost or whatever.
K , it meant nothing :D

OH! & i met weinyeong on the way.. like again? hmm, well we happen to live in the same block, so our world is small. LOL! haha! took the lift with him, & drums? i'l try ah. haha. okay, im sure you'll find me lame again? whatever you say :)


NOW NOW! the photos! ENJOY ! XD
all was for today ! actually all taken from cheryl's blog. :D
so thanks GF <3



so this is what happens when CHERYL's super bored.


poor deneng, me, peifang & cheryl "helped" him styled his hair. haha!


okay, yeeboon, labelled as the joker of the class. SEE THE EVIDENCE.


Faye & Cheryl <3


So very the sorry, you cannot be US :)



okay end of post! LALALA! TAG ME!


tomorrow is indeed a very eventful day. but why does it seems so normal? am i loosing my sincerity & passion? am i appreciating things i shouldnt ?

i need help. please guide me , take me wherever you'll go, i wanna see the things that you see. & tell me whatever you know, cos i wanna learn the things that you know. take me , & i'll follow.

SURVEYS!

1. Can you fill this out without lying?
^^ okay sure.
.
2. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
^^ haha, oatmeal .
.
3. Have u kissed anyone with the same sex?
^^ cheeks.
.
4. Where was your default picture taken?
^^ uhm, the disclaimer pic , lift? the profile pic, KFC & at cheryl's house.
.
5. Last person you rode in a car with over the age of 20?
^^ cheryl & her grand dad.
.
6. Can you play Guitar?
^^ no, but im planning to learn .
.
7. Last time you walked further than a block?
^^ hmmm .. i walk for long distances one.
.
10. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
^^ i am .
.
11. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
^^ no .
.
12. Which do you prefer, a kiss or a hug?
^^ depends on who's the person .
.
13. Do you believe exes can be friends?
^^ ofcourse! but it takes time .
.
14. Do you prefer to call or text?
^^ text = sms .
.
15. How do you feel about Diet soda?
^^ i wouldve chose water.
.
16. When was the last time you cried really hard?
^^ just recently ba .
.
17. Where are you at right now?
^^ home .
.
18. Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
^^ mine & mom's .
.
19. What was the last thing someone bought for you?
^^ chocolate cake, mommy.
.
20. When is your birthday?
^^ march 12 .
.
21. Who took your profile picture?
^^ profile.... cheryl, the 2nd was me .
.
22. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
^^ uhm... aya forgot.
.
23. Who owns your heart ryt now?
^^ i know who.
.
24. Can you live a day without TV?
^^ yes.
.
25. What are you listening to?
^^ non-english de.
.
26. Are you mad about anything?
^^ YES. my retest, why cant they just promote me.
.
27. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
^^ it is .
.
28. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
^^ when i found out that i have to retest .
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29. Where do you wish you were right now?
^^ there .
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31. Are you more of an individual or an outgoing person?
^^ middle . it depends .
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32. What items can you not go without during the day?
^^ comb.
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33. Would you share a drink with a stranger?
^^ huh? depends on the situation , if some beggar, i'l give it to him , no need to return.
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34. How do you feel about your life right now?
^^ confusing , messed up , complicated , no direction .
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35. Do you hate anyone?
^^ maybe .
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36. You would like to receive a text message from??
^^ from ****, ******, & some other .
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38. Last person you talked to on the phone?
^^ dad.
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39. Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
^^ i can .
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40. How's your heart?
^^ still with me , completely.

hi :)
haha. well, last monday in school ya? hais ~
well, for today, made it to school in time k! haha, im so proud.
cos im having my own bus-taking system again.
hmmm, F&N lessons, did nothing.
nicholas sat beside me & we did nothing but crap around.
made teacher so dulan with me & cheryl cos we laugh out lout. haha!
hmm, then... reccess, mama shop then off to basketball court.
played with chiawei & sharil .
okay, then maths class, me & cheryl were late again :(
i dont know lahs, im like already giving up.
anyone encourage me bigtime?
ah fine, then ya. lessons over & off to basketball court again.
IT WAS CRAP -.-
nobody was serious in the match at all ! LOL.
blablabla, off to cheryl's house then went to raffles there
for an interview! HAHA! hope me & cheryl can get the job ;)

THEN , SOMETHING HAPPENED. GRRRRRR.
2 boys followed us -.-
like wtf? it made me so dulan, i swear i dont like
people following me. okay, even though they didnt followed me,
i just hate the feeling of having someone behind you
that you dont even know! GRR.
were at that OUB centre ; then we decided to eat at BK.
we ordered food, & wtf? they are there -.-
ive no right to say what really happened
cos cheryl might blog it out on her blog - go see hers then.
LOL, the only thing i know is, JASON HAD LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT WITH CHERYL!
WAHAHAHAHA.
corniest line ive ever heard in 2008 . you fuckoff.
LOLS.

yea then went to tanah merah for some stuff then bus-ed home.
& i saw zhihong! haha, gave him a punch :D
K tats all !

like, can anyone inspire me?

Now Playing : Everything I do * By Brandy .

hmm, its for my granparents, my mom, cheryl, yang heng, & a few more names that takes a lot of courage for me to say. for all of you lah :)


Look in to my eyes ~
You will see, what you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find, then you'll search no more

Don't tell me, it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's not worth dying for
You know it's true everything I do I do it for you

Look in to you heart, you will find
There is nothing there to hide
Take me as I am, take my life
I would give it all, I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for
I can't help it, there's nothing I want more
You know it's true, everything I do I do it for you

There is no love, like your love
And no other could give me more love
There's nowhere, unless your there
All the time, all the way

You can't tell me it's not worth trying for
I can't help it, there is nothing I want more
I would fight for you, I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you, yeah I'd die for you

You know it's true
Everything I do I do for you .



i love alot of people now :)

1 NOVEMBER,2008

lalalalas. 3:27 am now you know ? :)
hais. reached home around 2:30 am++ . back from work .
yang heng really made my day everytime .
im thankful your not like any other guy. haha. thanks baobei! x3

uhm.. i think last night was unforgettable.
--if your done reading something bout me, stop reading this post now.

the one i asked to read my blog.
READ THIS PARTICULAR MESSAGE OVER & OVER AGAIN IF YOU NEED TO, COS ALL I WANT NOW IS FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHATEVER YOU NEED YO.

you know, after last night,
i found out lots of things about you, me, US.
its very funny to know.. =x
do you know how terrible it felt reading your blog post?
i guess the first paragraph is not for me, but the 2nd onwards .
actually as ive said, ive alot to tell you.
but you just wouldnt give me the chance to .
i dont want to leave you. but if you want me out of your life
like for a moment, or whatever time you need,
im fine with it. maybe we need space too correct?
i can understand if you want that. cos that's how i feel
about jonathan too..

i think i gave you too much, & you took too much.
at the same time, you offered too much, but i reject too much.
you dont get this dont you?
what i mean is, when it comes to problems, i solve mine
all by myself, while you share all of yours with me.
you know i have this experience ; that i rely-ed too much on
someone, & then at the end of the day, he wasnt there for me
anymore, & i got stucked.
this is why i dont wanna bother you about my probs.
BECAUSE IM NOT GONNA BE WITH YOU TIL NEXT YEAR.

your like, my everything for this point of my life.
cos im not inlove to any guy, nor to any other girl.
well ,you should know that dont you?
cos never did i leave you in any
circumstances. nor bad times .
i even made it to the point that whenever im free,
i will find no one but you .
gah, no point typing all these out .
but its the only way to FINALLY say & do my part.
just waste any of your time reading this. like CAREFULLY.

i know its unfair , cos im leaving .
but i didnt intend to leave so i can run away from you .
if you had been my bestfriend since sec one,
maybe it will be different now . cos i couldve
spent 3 years with you by then .
but look at the logic behind my history.
my bestfriends in sec one,
gone in sec 2.
my bestfriend in sec 2 ,
gone in sec 3.
all were replaced! but look at us now man .
were like so strong & even if we dont understand each
other that much, we build things up.
& infact, nobody destroyed us right?
cos they know were really happy with each other.
hais, i hope your really reading this. cos its not
easy to post something like this.. we shouldnt
care if other people read it bah . heck care them .

okay back to my point.
we have a lot of differences. nothing in common actually?
your into a sport im not , im into a talent you aint passionate about.
look at our houses. yours is like heaven, mine is below yours.
then my lifestyle , my background .
realised that before? hmmmm. i can also say that
we taught each other things that we cant learn from just anyone.

why am i saying all these?
cos babe, we have to face the fact now..
were grown ups & have each others' wants.
what i want is ; to start over.
you mentioned you wanna forget the past? i want that too.
& in order for that to happen, we need to
TEMPORARILY leave each other. like move on without you? without me?
i dont know how to survive days without you but,
i wanna try.. im not saying goodbye okay?
im never gonna leave you. NOT AT THIS POINT OF TIME.

uhm you tell me your thoughts & wants too.
a friendster message will be best for me.
or you blog it out too, but noobs will find a way out
to know who you are. hehe :]
i miss talking to you sia. its like, just 28 hours passed
but there's already alot to tell. ahh! iloveyou.

I WANNA GO BACK MY HOMETOWN NOW . I NEEDA BE AWAY FOR ATLEAST ONE YEAR. END OF POST.