im really very sleepy now :(
LOLS.
but i must post before 12 am !

today , haha. baby very funny one.
he message me at 6+ am , asking me if im awake.
then 6:40 am , the message was saying he was under my house & asking me to wake up.lols!
i read these 2 messages around 8+ am le.
so informed him just woke up :)
he also very cute. on the spot meet de -.- haha . no luh, i get it that you wake up too early.
told him i'l meet him at the later part of the morning.
he went down cc around going to 10 am already.
& i reached cc 1t 10:40 am . hahahaha . sorry for waiting babyx3!
the funny thing is, were both talking about some serious stuff but the aeroplanes or whatever it is flying in the sky keep on making noises! hahaha. whenever he want say something that time , there's this "ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ" sound. lol . very funny =x
blablabla.
er , whenever im with jiajun, i can really go die okay. he keep making me laughhhhhh!
he told me a lame story .
share with you all ok? :)


-> there was this man who's uncle died. he stored the ash remains in a jar.
he wanted to down so he went to the stairs.
[im laughing la. lol.] okay, then hoh. the man lost control & fell down the stairs.
he love his uncle so much that he protected the jar & not himself. LOL haha.
a group of people came & asked if he was okay. the man said "ya , the jar is okay. please help me take." [something like that -.-] .
then a guy , took the jar & placed it in his hand. his phone rang & poof -.-
he let go of the jar & it broke . haha LOLLLL.
not only it broke , the wind became strong & the ashes flew here & there ! hahaha.
crap right? the way he tell the story very funny de la :] haha.

okay fine , crap & talk & talk more until i needa go work le.
my work ends at 7 pm . blabla.
but hoh ! walau -.- around 6:00 pm that time , i was at the counter together with jingwan . then , i was looking at the direction of the arcade there . suddenly got 3 boys wanna enter KFC , LOL! & i realised it was jiajunx3 , jiaming & billy! WTFFF. was shocked & felt paiseh so went inside & i didnt care whether the que was long . hahaha . lucky the manager was dennis. lol. baby ~ dont come without saying le! lols. JIAMING I HATE YOU MANNN . :)

okay., work end le then i bus-ed home .
talking to cheryl while homing. LOL. that bitch , still want go hotel. how dare you leave me ! lol. whatever ! missyou la.
reached home le then cabbed to parkway with my bro & dad.
shop shop shop then bus-ed home with them. LOLS.
then went online , chatted with baby! he sleep le then im blogging now :)

jiajun uh ! i hope you wont be so stress le luh.
i feel very what la. i usually can help other people easily, they tell me their problems & i know what advices to give. but when it comes to my boyF, im very blank-minded !
thanks for making me happy even if your so stressed about other things le. iloveyou!

okay fine, i gtg now.
he asked me to sleep early , & i have to . cos tmr, 6 am , i must wake up to meet him. LOL . so extra-ordinary hor . 6 am -.-
lalala. i hope i can sneak out of my house ! LOLSS.


&ididlovedyoubefore.butdidyouappreciatethat?ihavemyownlifenow.youhaveyours.getoverthepast..ifyoucanbringitback,icant.asitoldyou,ifoundsomeonebetterthanyou.getoutofmylife&idontwannabeyourfriendbastard.

this post , is to show how bad i am as jiajun's girlfriend :)

; i punch his arms & thighs so many times le . i think got lots of blue black now. haha.
; everytime he say sweet sweet thing , i will call him lame & loser :)
; then if he smoke , i also want smoke .
; he never message me , i also wont . he never talk to me, i also wont.
; if he play bball & played til so lihai , i will say .. "like that only!!"
; he tells me stories about this & that , havent even start i will laugh le. cos i know its craps :)
; i made his bloglink th-crapstoread.bs cos his a crapper. the best okay!
; whenever his not around , i always call him idiot & asshole infront of my friends! like , "where that idiot go siaaa." :D :D

okay fine , the list goes on .
i hope someone happy now hohhhhhhh .
HORRRR ! roars .

idiot :]

today was really a long day. I SWEAR .
too many things happened in one day. i cannot tahan de. cried just now =x
lalalala .

be used to my long posts now cos im really gonna blog everything down now ! haha .


Woke up at 6:05 am. was still lying on the bed , half asleep - half awake.
recieved morning message from baby:)
blabla. we both planned to go somewhere today actually . & i thought i he can be completely mine today :x
went to school le. had that 'last walk' in manjusri .
it was totally nothing -.- i didnt reminisced anything at all!
but something very very funny & day maker happened. hahaha :)
EILEEN JONG FELL DOWN & TRIP OVER THE MUDDY GRASS! WAKAKAK.
she was like, so cute ! she stand up & saw mr.tay laughing , then she suddenly attacked mr.tay siaaaa. hahahaha. punched him until mr.tay shocked la . hahaha !
whatever. that was really cute la :D :D
lalala. came back skool & waited for the teacher's day concert . lol .
waited for 30 mins okay -.-
the program started le , sat with cheryl - puaysee - jonathan - hongkiap & aaron!
very fun okay. LOL .
halfway the show , puaysee told me something that . . . walau -.-
she & cheryl get what i mean ba. wahaha. dont wanna mention it here :)
okay fine . found out from jiajun that he end school at 12 plus.
so after the program , me & cheryl followed hongkiap they all play bball.
then i went to cheryl's house change clothes !
going to 11:50 pm le , jj havent sms me =x
so went to find jonathan ,eldon & kenny at LPK .
the 3 of them was so funny luhhh . LOL ! were at the bowling thingy there.
they share one shoe -.- hahaha. then jonathan fell down when he threw the ball ! hahahaha. luckily he didnt slide along with the ball can. or else i'l be laughing til die la. hahaha. :D
blablablabla. finished the whole game then went up to the cinema there .
then %^&$*@(@)&@^#&#$(!!
haiya , was bad mood-ed that time.. he should be thankful that someone like him is always there for me de. haiii . but okay, i understand. i wouldve been jealous too. but just that , there was really no one left to pei me wait le. so find them.
DANG . jj's parents scolded him then he was asked by his parents to go home !
WTFFFF . didnt managed to meet him . grrr :(
its like... SAI LA. i miss him too much de. so, i was kinda dissapointed. & again, who was beside me? jonathan. again. but he pei-ed me awhile nias , he also got problem with .... haii ! i really wish i can be there for you & help you solve but , i cant think properly just now. sorry & thanks. your the best la jonathan! i mean - among my guy friends.
meimei called me to meet at LPK . hang out :)

okay fine , skip that part when he left me. i was at the rooftop then saw gary & max from that view.
rushed down to see them . LOLLLLLS.
lalalala . this 2 boys hoh , really can go crazy de. were at the sportslink there & keep saying what , they wanna change sports and their choices was -.-
ballet ; swimming ; tennis & circus playerrr. ahaha . lamersss :D
pei-ed them eat at the foodcourt , then meimei & amber reaching LPK le , so left gary & max - met meimei.
LOL . we waited for amber . then had lunch ! went to the rooftop there,
climbed that thing to see some view. LOL. me & amber down there emo . haha !
awhile later eileen , her friend & kenneth yee came .
we all went down to CC . usual people were over there.
i played until so 'into' today laas . really ! =x
lol . 15 minutes later , meimei give me that 'arherm' sound , then i look at the cc entrance, WTF . its jiajun .
my impression was like , "wah? he can go down cc but he cannot meet me?"
so i gave him that kind of look , then he keep asking me what happened & why i like that blablablablabla. i keep saying nothing la ; so we both go with each other's friends then played ball lor .
he went home for tution . but i stayed at cc. [was really into basketball. haha]
he messaged me , okay fine . both side also have fault ba.
decided to stop being childish for the moment & i think things are normal now.

whateverrrr . i want to play basketball ! LOL.
but i want to play with amber & meimei laaa.. they both believe in me hohhh . haha:D
around 7:40 pm i go home le .
& ya , was stressed. parents , family overseas , studies , him , & other friends whom i neglected.
to puaysee, jonathan, eldon, deneng, marie & dionis .
sorry if just now didnt managed to go out with any of you :(
next time , i'l think properly who to choose. i know some of you all angry la.
really soryyyyyy.


LOH JIA JUN ! I REALLY LOVE YOU LAA . I'LL TRY TO UNDERSTAND NEXT TIME . but seriously, its . . tiring =x




bmudmi . diputsmi .


I feel so sleepy luhh . my crappers aint online :(

miss my work buddies :)
yang heng , shaiful manager , dennis manager & yeeboon? hahas:)


nights everyone !
happy teacher's day !

hey :x

today, my mood not good luh .
wasted 6 bucks on cab fare to school.
wasted another 6 for cab fare from school to mcc . LOL.
im bankrupt le laa. seriously !
i dont wanna ask money from my parents. they will ask me where i keep going everyday nia. atleast if they dont give me too much money, they dont have to ask too much questions . LOL .

im very stressed can. just now , while playing bball at school,
amber told me she dont wanna go mcc le, WALAU . its like,
i shouldve followed deneng they all watch movie lor ! she make me abit dulan $#@!
whatever ~ but end up, we still go. lols.
met baby at cc ; played ball . LOL.
atleast im a good gf okay ! i follow my bf's interests ! :D


blablablablabla.
cheryl's things make my bag even heavier okayyyy :X
walauu . tmr have to carry it over her house!
stupid mr.tay. call me bring home -.-
blablabla. but nevermind la, for my bitch , can la :)

im mooooooody. really !!
ineedsomeone'shug =x
GRRRR. just parted from baby , miss him le . wthhhh . dont like this feeling !


okay fine , im really not in the mood .
i just remembered, my stupid dance teacher diao-ed me just now.
who the hell she think she is mannnn . i'l make sure my dancers
will hate her mannnn . GRRR .
school's gonna end at 10:30 am tomorrow . & wtf .
cheryl needa go home straight . i thought can spend my morning with her. haiya =x
its so difficult to live a life with a bestfriend who's grandmother is fuckingly strict. seriously. i cant cope ! whatever~ .


NO MOOOOOD -.-
nights .

hohoho xD

post before i fall asleep completely .
had dance just now ! & i got 5 LRC left . i hope i wont get anymore! please!

whatever. walked to the bus stop with sihui .
well , atleast now , both of us are okay even though we have our own friends already. if your reading this, imissyou. really. but hey , i think were fit to be just normal friends who are always there for each other right? (:
even though things are not the same anymore , im still happy were talking now. we used to have those walks with loud laughters ; but just now , it was awfully silent.. hmm.. hope your always happy:)


okay . reached home .
talked to meimei then cheryl . then onlined .
chatted with my crappers . whole night smsing with baby . LOL.
imisshim :)

okay fine .
i'l meet him tomorrow anyway!
blablabla. cheryl teo aint coming skool :(
so i have to take bus on my own ! WALAAUUU . jonathan also cannot pei me , cos his parents sending him to skooooool. GRR.
whatever ! :D
i can do it one . haha . must be independent !

lohjiajunisloved.

lalalala.

you can kind of ignore my previous post now. LOLS.
but nah , its still kinda active but atleast better :x

whatever, i didnt blogged about yesterday , so here it is !


YESTERDAY
err . first day of school after 2 days of weekends !
well , usual routine. nothing really much in the morning.
usually in class, me & cheryl stick together. where she is ; is where i am.
but inside of class, either were with deneng that group or the girls!
but most of the time, we prefer just the 2 of us. LOL.
okay blablabla. went to canteen after skool for lunch with cheryl, deneng, eldon, chiawei, peifang, jackson & nicholas.
that deneng wanted to go LPK to buy gift . asked me to pei him but -.-
i have detention. so cheryl , jackson & nicholas pei-ed him !
serve my detention le then cabbed to LPK to find them .
on the way , saw jonathan ! haha. he was walking, so called him & asked him if he want to follow me, then he run to my cab . HENG the traffic light is red! LOL.
okay blablabla. found them le then pei-ed deneng buy whatever rubbish.
goodluck to you hoh boy :D
fine. done shop-seeing then went to KFC to have our meal. LOL
stupid jackson & nicholas! keep on quarelling with me over that $11.95 meal.
whatever. its just really funny. i sweaaar . haha:)
done eating le then we all walked to CC.
wow. imagine, we all managed to be together & had fun ! haha . not bad hoh :D
played one round at cc then i saw until someone . . .
LOLS , over le so i dont have to say . then walked home with jonathan.

jonathan ! really thankyou lea! yesterday , half way playing you still pei-ed me go away from cc. thanks for understanding . thanks for being by my side when there's things happening that i cant understand. aya, dont know how to repay your friendship but , i will always be there for you de ! you call me be happy , you also wor :)

okay blablabla. something bad happened last night , but jonathan was there so everything turned out fine .
i reached home le then talked to cheryl on phone.
halfway then some idiot called in ! LOLS. okay la, not idiot :) its baby.
LOLS.
cheryl purposely left the 2 of us .
talked problems through & maybe , just maybe, we can change it.
talked for almost 2 hours okayyyy #@!$%^&@
i was happy la LOL .. slept le .


TODAY
was almost late for skool but nah , cheryl's grandad is a fast driver. haha!
whatever . . me & cheryl found out that alot of teachers keep talking about us .
about pon-ing skoool haiya , we dont give a fuck BUT , my parents -.-
sooner or later, i know they will find out.
so i need to prepare my clothes le. lols. i sure will run away :)
whatever. blablablabla. end of the day , actually i have LRC.
but hell ! that stupid principal caught me & cheryl & asked us to go inside her office.
she talked rubbish with cheryl ; but what she told me , i understand. lol.
whatever la. cheryl cried so i have no choice , pei her go wherever she wanna go during that time. EFFFFF #$!$^&%$@#! i pon lrc laaaa.
sure will kana again . GRRRR .
whatever. im used to it anyway =x
went cc then baby came . cheryl went home first .
so slacked with baby . then blablablabablabla.
meimei & eileen came. played one round with them & POOF ! i fell down laaaa!
& plus , that fall is extra-ordinary one nor !! WTFFF . only meimei & eileen will understand la. its funny , but at the same time, SO WRONGGG .
grrrr. lucky nobody saw laaaaaaa. GRRRRR. hahaha. whatever man.
okay , lasly , met jonathan & went to parkway. he's so funny one. LOLS.
whatever , goodluck okay? :D

okay done posting ! SO LONG RIGHT! just read la :)
i dont care de. lol


iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyoux333

love will still win in the end.
i know .

no use getting angry over small things.
i know.

no use breaking up if you know you yourself will suffer - while him , you dont know.
i know.

you enter a relationship & therefore you have to understand your partner.
i know.


some things, i just cannot accept it.
i tried my best . but i cant understand things that far.
i want care , love , happiness . not just from any guy.
i want it from him . ya , from jiajun .
but . . .
i dont wannt say so much here .
its wrong . i know .

dont get anything wrong can? just put this in your mind, if you wouldve messaged me the way anyone else message me , i will reply you only .
if you couldve pei-ed me like anyone else did , i wouldve chosen to be with you first.
all i want is for you to atleast tell me where you are , or where will you be.
is that too much to give? i think informing me what your doing for the moment or whatever , is better than keep saying "sorry" cos you didnt messaged me.


forget it, i'l do something . see if you still wont feel anything.
if after what i'l do & your more happy or prefer that kind of life, then okay.
no more turning back , cheryl & jonathan, i'l do that. you both know what i mean.


no mood le.
fucked up. =/

my work from 12-6 pm was extended from 12-11 pm . hahaa :)
im so strong right hoh !

LOL . cos , got people pei me crap around ma. that's why !
with friends around at work , no stress no tiredness :]

anyways, worked with yang heng til 7 pm .
jonathan came then he replace yang heng as my crap buddy haha !

blablababla. not tiring lea. im serioussss.
work until 11:30 pm then walked home with jonathan.
that idiot -.-
keep saying craps & bullshits. hahaha.
whatever. but thanks for pei-ing me walk :)
act-gentleman de. lol

okay fine.
i badly miss baby .
idk what happened to him for 2 days =x
it seems that were the couple who dont need to sms & update each other one.
LOLLLLLLLLLS.
im not like that , but this is our love-routine. lol.

whatever! hope skool's gonna be fine tomorrow :)

cheryl teooo . im calling you after awhile ! hahas.

byebyebyebye.
tag will be replied tomorrow. i wanna sleep leaaa.

where are you sia :(

hmm . have work today. til 6 pm - kallang stadium .
stupid eldon ! my name tag is with him .
& wtf -.-
people keep talking to me in chinese yesterday .
as i wore a name tag with 'hui ying' name. lols.
ELDON ! i'l kick you tomorrow ! for sure ! roars !
haha :)

that fucker . keep on disiaong me here & there. hahas.
random misses ~ sihui , deneng , kenneth yong , dionis :(

fine . im waiting =/

LALALA .

woke up at 6:39 am today . ~ baby called.
LOLS. actually, wanna pei them (jj , wayne & gerald) go downtowneast .
they got 3v3 today .
6:44 am i went down meet them . just to give him morning luck ! hahaha :)
LOL . i find it lame luhh . but then im good enough okay.
imagine, i sneaked outta my house. & yes , my parents didnt noticed
i was gone for 15+ minutes. LOLS.

after they took cab le ,
i went back home. took off my cardi & slept back :D

around 10 plus am , mum woke me up !
its already going to be 11 am that time . & my work was at 12 -.-
so i chiong-ed all the way to lpk .

reached le. 9 mins to 12 pm. LOL. worked til 6 pm.
poof. i just realised, why am i so precise in timing today? LoL
anyway , before going home , pei-ed shaiful to smoke at the stairs there.
LOL . then he was kinda getting over some girl ,
which i told him - she aint worth it at all .
whatever, he was rather feeling emo all over again . & that make me wanna slap that girl. whoever she is ! LOL.
those reading these, you dont know what happen. so dont make any comments., LOL

whatever. met a friend through shaiful - his name is 'casper' haha LOL.
shaiful went back to work so . . .
chatted with that casper awhile.
LOL . whatever.
i cabbed home as i was so fucking giddy la !
after i took my lift to 9th floor , i vomitted -.-
sorry to the cleaners of my hdb block .
LOL LOL . millions of sorry ! i cannot tahan -.-

before taking a nap , mum made that tea for me.
i was touched. LOLS.

whatever.

imissyou:)

HELLO .

lols!

today, skool was like . . . -.-'
i think i wake up early for nothing luhh.
but then again, i really MUST go school, as that's my only way out of my house.
haha! & im clever hor . weekends, i use 'work' as a reason. LOL
i would rather work than stay at home with my bloody parents =/
blabla. & FYI . im quitting KFC soon. not very fun le !

anyways,
my morning routine was the same.
after recess, me & cheryl spent one whole period in class with that
mrs.keng or whatever shit . im bored in class. i swear !
so i started writting on the board.
& i just wrote "SEX_ED" .. & my whoe class girls went crazy man!
hahahaa. whatever. my girls will understand :)
but then funny thing is , end up all called me HORNY. wth ! all participated one nor!
haha lol.

then . . escaped skool with cheryl.
haha lols. that was like , 11:10 am ! for the record - that was my earlier ponning ever done. lols.

then bus-ed with cheryl to baby's house!
& cheryl down there played maple. haha .
slacked there for just like , one hour ;
then me & cheryl went to lpk :)
my idiot needa go skool collect his maths paper.
eh , he got A1 hor . haha ! 2nd highest in class. im proud-ed :) LOLLL.

blablabla. me & cheryl was like . EF man. such a long day ahead of us !
it was just 1 pm when we found ourselves sitting at mac stadium . had lunch there!
LOLS. then walked to lpk & disiao-ed shop keepers. hahaha.
whatever, me & cheryl know what i mean .
5 dollars? 26 dollars ? hahaha!
& we both have the same wallet with the same wallet strap okay!
haha . idk . today is just a lucky day for me & my bitch :)

okay. had enough of disiao-ing .
& oh yah , thanks to some sec two people at the bowling there.
their so generous okay! let me & cheryl played 2-3 turns . haha.
whatever. it seems so fun to hang around with people younger than you now . LOL

okayokayokay.
enough of crapping ! =x
after that , went to meet baby again . at grandlink .
slacked then he went out with parents -.-

so again , me & my bitch ,
went to CC . haha . saw some ice-cream sellers there.
bought one ice-cream cake.
which were so excited to eat ; & ended up , we couldnt even finish it . LOLLLL?
blabla. were always like that anyway. half-way eating , dont want le @#!% .
waste of moneyyyy luhhhh . grr .

then saw zhi hong a.k.a GORI so slacked with him .
hahahaha ! me & my bitch got damn hyper after eating that ice cream haha.
we went to disiao him until hoh ,
he slipped down on the bball court there due to rain. & fell on his BUTT! hahahahah :D
stupid gori . hahahaha . that made my day okay ! LOL.

whatever. sent cheryl home then i walked home .
that's all for today !

TAG REPLIES!

weijia :D - haha okay okay . thanks again then :)
CHUAN - haha takecare too ! lols. & thanks AGAIN also. haha.
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Hello~ - your announcement so big okay . lols . thanks xam :)
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when i look into your eyes, i know that its true . baby you changed my world with just one kiss .

i swear i want to last long with the idiot im with now . I SWEAR . iloveyou:D

hello hello ! :D

hahas. im so overwhelmed today.
luckily , i didnt ran away from home.. as my dad actually allowed me to get
out of our house. miracle okay ! :D
lol. but then again , i told him i wanna play basketball & not anything else.
LOLSSS.

so blabla. went out to meet baby .
slacked at CC.
& the usual people was there.. lols :)

spent time with that idiot for almost 3 hours. im very happy worrr .
LOL LOL LOL.
talk talk talk talk talk until cheryl came .
then walked to her hse with her jie , baby & cheryl.
i came in to her house ; took some files then gossiped abit.

i walked home & my dad wasnt angry at all . hahaha.

okayokay.
no dance tomorrow ! IM FREE MANNNNNNN . yesssaaaaa.
lols.

BYE BYE BYE :)

hais .
didnt went to skool today ! & i regret so much man.

i cant even get outta my house -.-
WTF luhh .
tomorrow, i'l make sure i will go home VERY LATE .
lols .

actually, planned to run away from home today.
but thanks to jiaming :)
hahas. i dont know luhh . he phsyco-ed me to just stay here =/

[edited part] :D
i dont know where's jiajun la .
dont get it wrong . i mean , just let things happen lor . i wont control. LOL
since he wants a free life so much , i'l give it then .
aiya whatever. this is what happens when you love someone so much. being dumb .

sorry to cheryl teo !
& marie . planned how to run away with these 2 girls already. but then cannot =/
or maybe i'l change my mind later . . .
see first ba :)

blablablablabla.
i wont ever pon school already ! if i cannot come out the following afternoon,
forget it . i'l suffer til death in the morning . even if im sick.
just go man . LOLS.

GRRR. kinda giddy now !

imissyou. no, not you. the last time you :( . . im just waiting for the time when i'l see the jiajun i used to know. dont think so much. iloveyou.

my mood is slowly coming back .

hope THINGS will turn back to normal . lols .

i understand baby le :)
but i dont know until when i can understand . hahaha joking ^^

quite a lot of things happened today.

whatever. its crap anyway .

dancers ! i miss you all sia. lols . RANDOM .
cheryl ! walau , cannot call me le la -.-
wayne ! thanks for pei-ing me go down cc .
gary ! you know what im thankful of already luh :)
jiaming & naisoon ! you both better go early on sat. lols .
gerald ! im still talking to you now. haha lol. you entertainer :)
max & mazni ! there's better things in life you both should be happy about :D


okayokay. whatever . im oh-so-random now . LOLs.
tomorrow better be a good day !
or else , my mood level will start to drop again -.-


dont expect . just love :)

im boiling in anger now i swear !

how stupid can i get?
rushed there to check out if that person is safe or what -.-
WTF la . STUPIDNESS i tell you !

still can haha here , haha there . LOL right !?
no point worrying , i forgot , must trust hoh ? SORRY HOH . SORRY . GRRRRRRRR.

CAN SOMEBODY JUST TAKE OUT MY HEART OUT OF ME ! I DONT WANT A HEART LIKE MINE ! I WANT TO THROW IT AWAY LA ! SOMEONE JUST TAKE IT OUT ! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

why does all good things comes to an end? why cant atleast ONE thing remain as it is? why must people's brains start to think of things we shouldnt even bother about? why do we meet people who fucks our life upside down?! why do we fall inlove? why cant we just live a without caring for anyone? why must i be faye? why cant i be someone else? why cant i control what i feel? WHY THE FUCK AM I ASKING THESE QUESTIONS -.-

i dont understand. my emotions are getting me crazy. i know exactly why. but ive no courage to admit it . cos it really hurts me . deep down, the pain is unbearable. & i tell you what ; since august 6, im already experiencing this. whoever's reading this now might ask me , "then why dont you tell me?" or bullshits like ; "lol. you never say out what you feel how would i know?" .
HA - HA - HA ! life is so cute nowadays. people want you to tell them what's wrong ; what's hurting you ; what's bothering you ; & OH_WHAT_THE_FUCK . will they even actually do anything ? 1/50 people in this world knows how to listen. 2/180 people in this world knows how to solve problems for other people. & trust me, you can actually count EVERY PERSON in this world who can be trusted & be beside you until everything is fine.

haha. very funny man :)
i was like, happy & enjoying things around me , then here i find myself again.
STUCKED. mylifehasnomeaningnow.iswear.

because of one thing , i can go crazy. i can put in all things together & blame everyone. especially myself.
i think so much . ya your fucking correct . i worry too much . idiot your right !
so what? im like that ! what can you do?
cna my world just stop spinning for even one hour ?

whatever . i really know the reason behind all these words infront of you now.
but i learnt from mistakes already.
i wont rush anything . & once people play with me, i play back.
im very easy to talk to . really :)
haha. no one's getting me. i know .
& nobody have to .

cheryl , this has got nothing to do with you.
thanks for being a sister - a girlffriend - a cheer buddy & everything.
i hope in the end, you'l be the one beside me .
lets find our DB soon . lols.
i'l make sure once i find it , i wont let it go.

& you , where are you when i needed you the most? if only your not capable of doing things to make me happy ... hehs . #$%!@!&^!

aya. fucked up now .
i'l chill . hope things go smoothly .

12:25 am .

i cant sleep la.
idk whyy . after eating my dinnner which was around 8:55 pm,
i rested on my bed. & found myself kana awaken by my mom.
which was arounf 11:45 pm :(
sadded la. i hope i can still get back to sleep . talking to one fucker now.
hahas. no la. my friend one :)

anyway,
i hope tomorrow's gonna be a great day. i need a break =x

HELLO ! :D

haha lols. today , nothing much ?

just that , my morning was good. i wasnt sleepy & giddy like the past mornings :)
then then . make it on time, even earlier, to cheryl's house ! haha.

FYI ; i go to cheryl's house every morning , & take car go sch together ! hahas.

LOLS.
had P.E in the morning . didnt really played much.
but still played. lolsss.
then went crapping with cheryl for reccess.
but most if the time , crapped with deneng & eldon ! my boyfs in class. hahaha ^^

then went to serve LRC.
blabla . then went to CC with cheryl , meimei & amber.
im glad to meet baby :)

talked to him awhile then went home le.
nevermind. next time i hope he got more time :(

whatever :D

bbye people !

imlovingyoumore&more-eachday:]

HELLO :)

lols .

my weekends damn boring la . FUCK .
never meet baby for 2 days can go die one okayy.. -.-
lucky got cheryl & people to talk to in msn . lols

whatever. that's all :)

went vivo just now.

iloveyoubaby:)

this day , is like one of the worst & boring day. but met the people i find most important today. except baby :(

woke up at 9:05 am . just to see if he sms-ed me.
but ef . he didnt .
stayed awake until 9:15 & my message ringtone rang.
but guess what . it wasnt him =x
hmm hmm .. nothing much.
just spent one & a half hour lying on my bed . waiting for atleast his usual 'goodmorning' message . but poof . there's really nothing :(
forced myself to get up of bed. bathed then prepared breakfast for my bro, who was busy playing his computer games.
got ready for work then i receieved a call from manager ; he called me go at stadium instead of lpk . lols . i was like , working in stadium for 10 mins already ..
then the manager from lpk called me & asked me to go there.
i was like, WTFFF ! they think wad -.-
im so free uh?
whatever la. mam jean was there so what can i do . walked to lpk ~ with cheryl talking to me at my hp.
whatever. reached there & fuck . the environment wasnt good at all la.
& during 1 pm, still no message from him . . .
i was like , checking my hp every other minute just to check.
but ; ya . my bad .
i disiao-ed everyone in my sight at work . i dont wanna suffer alone. LOLs.
but end up ; i actually even entertained them -.-

whatever. worked til 5 pm then went to cheryl's house.
i bought cheesefries for her okay! hehs. nevermind la :) i wanna make my bestfriend happy. atleast seeing her touched & happy can please me too :)
haha. then .. met jonathan & ..
yea whatever. it just feels so right to slack with jonathan la. i mean,
not every boy will pei you slack even if both of you aint talking at all.
i guess we understand what the other one dont .
then explain whatever it is lor ... hmmm :)
thanks jonathan ! really appreciated . haha . & dont tell anyone about the place just now hor . i dont want ppl copy my emo-ing place. lol :x
while with him , he counselled me about the bf-not-smsing-you-thing.
lols. so i messaged baby .
& i found out something stupid. were both waiting for each other's message! its like so stupid mannnnn =x
whatever la. he seems so stressed . so i dont wanna say childish things now. he needs time then i'l give it . without hesitation . without hard feelings.

i just really miss baby .. i dont know how to survive without you man. i cant find someone better . but really , there are some things that .. im just plain spoiled about :)
like the fact that ; i already give you freedom to smoke . to go out with your friends anytime you like . isnt that enough? :(
but no la . i really can understand . & i already gave you my trust ! so i hope you'll appreciate . hmmm ..
whatever. just please takecare of yourself ! PLEASEEEEE .
iloveyoumansomuch. :]



anyways , chatting with baby now . & guess what . im still laughing over this rather lame or funny thing. hahahahah x333.

( jiajun x333 ) says:
baby dun worry abt me so much ok!
( jiajun x333 ) says:
when u worry= i worry
( jiajun x333 ) says:
i worry= stress
( jiajun x333 ) says:
stress = cannot concentrate
( jiajun x333 ) says:
cannot concentrate= cannot study
( jiajun x333 ) says:
cannot study= cannot pass
( jiajun x333 ) says:
cannot pass = cannot go sec 5
( jiajun x333 ) says:
cannot go sec 5= die
( jiajun x333 ) says:
die = cannot see u
( jiajun x333 ) says:
T_T


lame right ! haha . whatever. ilovethatguy hor . dont anyhow :)
haha lol.

that's for today . i dont feel like working tmr. but i know its a must.
whatever ! bye everyone :)
suddenly so many tags in my tagboard . haha. KEEP IT UP ! :)
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

hey ..

well , nothing really much this day.
had dance & then went to find someone :)
i swear im so thankful to be thi person's friend !
he made my mind so clear. so clear until i realised things
which no one made me realised everrr .
whatever. i just know that whenever things go bad,
i know who to find FIRST :)
thanks J-LEE! hahaha . i didnt thought you can be a mature boy. wakakak.



FOR BABY ....
jiajun . . i dont know how to tell you in any other way . so i guess i'l say it here . you know what? i think i love you too much.
i love you too much that if you dont message me, i'l go crazy.
i love yoo too much that if you didnt reply me, i'l worry like fuck.
i love you too much that when i found out your with girls , EVEN with my friends who are girls , i get jealous without any reason :(
i love you too much that i cant even concentrate on anything else when i didnt see you.
i just hope you know these things ?
cos you really mean a lot to me . i dont know why . but one thing i know for sure ..
i never wanted anyone like this before !

i just hope you understood & get what i mean :)
there are things about us that i just dont say out .
partly cos i dont wan you to worry ; & there's no point saying.

but dont think so much okay? :)
i just really want you to know .
hehs .



BLABLABLA :)
finally have a free day tomorrow ! :D
im gonna spend my day with cheryl. hehs. but i think baby will most likely meet me . LOLS.
nobody seems to know my new link :(
that's why so little people tag me. haiiiss.

TAKECARE EVERYONE :)

" cherish everything you have now. because in the end, atleast you wont regret if its gone . " - jonathan :)
haha. just say out for fun :)
means a lot to me . lol.

BYE :P

im tired .

i dont know why !

shaiful(secskool) keep on giving me hanging words ! =/
wtf do he mean? were just friends man . im happy with my own
guy now. haiiss.. i want both of us to be FRIENDS . please dont
leave any more messages that will keep me thinking so much.

exams are here . & im not even studying! WHYYY . haiyaaa.
im too tired to read anything at all . WHY =/

i dont even know whether im still into dancing.
TOMORROW there's dance! ohsshiitt. after missing 3 lessons, how the ef am i gonna cope with my so low flexibility now ? -.-

whatever.
i wanna spend one day with someone who can just be beside me.
who can read me without me talking .
LOL . impossibble ? i agree :)

you make me so confused . i hope you know how much i love you .. :(

hello everyone :)

ok .
now im sure about what to post leaa.
hahaha . let me tell you people what's new in my life alright :D

basically , i think im neglecting work & dance.
when last time, that was my priority .
i understand that i cant manage a lot of things in one time.
so many people step into my life now . & all of those people
are those i wanna meet since last time . now ,
sihui & me , infact maybe some others as well really drift le.
but , its not that i wanted that to happen. its just that,
i would rather you all go your own way than stick to me while
i talk about things which to you all will just be 'craps' or
'bullshits' . see my point now ?

i tried my very best to control my feelings . but in the end,
love still won . i broke my promise to someone.
im attached when i shouldnt be =x

to CHERYL TEO ;
your my almost everything now . i hope one day , u'l learn how to be a bestfriend to me. & how to be a good GF to him . im waiting fot that day to come . & i wont get tired of waiting ; cos i know you will eventually be. only if you remember all of our rules , nothing should be wrong . i hope this friendship of ours can last long okay? hehs . iloveyou ! :D

to Jiajun,Wayne,Gary,KennethYEE,Jiawei,Gori,Max & Jeremy ;
you people are the boys of my life man :) thanks for everything . i know im not that close to you all yet , but seriously speaking , i want some people like you all who can understand me & look after me like a little sister :)
especially to kenneth & gary . thanksthanks:)
i hope you guys wont get into any more troubles ! pleaaase :D
but of all of you guys , i love one the most okay ! haha . ^^

to Meimei,Dionis,Amber,Tiffany,Eileen,Deneng,Kenneth,Eldon ;
the bestfriends of my life:)
i hope that sometimes, even though i neglect some of you,
i hope you all can understand ! :)
i'l try my best to be there everytime. i know im not that free now ,
but seriously , i would offer my life just to make you all happy! :D
please takecare of yourselves. iloveyouall luhhh.

to Marie,Sihui,Puaysee ;
the 3 best girls in my life. sorry . sorry . sorry .
i know im neglecting you 3 so much .
i dont know how to give you all time .
i have so much things now . its okay if one day , you all
just tell me straight that you all dont like me.
i can understand . please takecare of yourselves ?
you 3 are my life - the reason why im happy now .

okayokay. that's enough :)

no more things to say !
hahas . i hope that im okay with everyone.
except some people who cant stand it without hating me !

keep on meeting 06 these few days .
i hope , i can beat that 8 months :)
i just want him to be someone who will think of me also .
not only himself , his friends , his family .
i just need some space in his heart . im contented le !
i hope he can be that dreamguy i want .
as i dont want anyone else. i want him . badly . x333.

TAKE CARE EVERYONE !

~ 4 so far .

LOLs :)

i feel so random . sad . happy . confused .
wtff luh =x

i dont know. next time im assured of what to post , i post ba :)

i dont like what im feeling .
please let it fade. anything . anything. arrh whatever la =x

PEOPLE PEOPLE :)

i know everyone missed me posts! hahaha :D

so here it comes againn . haha:)

seriously, nothing new in my life.
just that , my cousin went back to my country already. haiiss. ive to be independent again . & plus look after my bro. how the fuck can i go mcc already -.-
speaking of mcc , i so love that place la :)
really man ! haha . i think cheryl will understand. LOL. whatever. i just know im sure that .. that what im feeling is is reaaaal ! LOL.

err err , i keep playing basketball almost everyday . haha . i hope got improvement ba. didnt really work much these past few days. kind of busy with family things.
but im looking forward to the following days. LOL .

but fuck ! i have 9 days of LRC again la. like, walau la. when will i ever have a free monday-wednesday man!? now only left thursday as my free day. haiya! just now some more pon LRC . sure kana plus plus again la -.-

hmmm .. that's all i think :)
im waiting for something now . something. not someone. LOL. okay. gtg !

im thankful . real thankful for meeting someone like you! cos you bring out the best in me ^^ ...

i'l promise to update :)

next time.

for now, fill my tagboard !!! :D