everything went wrong today.

in the morning , im really not feeling well .
as in im sooooo weak. seing everyone so happy & so okay , it made me weaker!
im so effing weak tat i just break down & cry.
then that one called act pityful ?
well maybe it seems tat way. i cannot do anything le.

just how many ppl in this world didnt made mistakes.
like just say a secret tuh someone ALSO close tuh you & you know can be TRUSTED.

my parents fetch me in skool .
they saw me crying ... then ive no choice.. tell them the WHOLE THING.
my mom was frigging angry .
she thought everything was okay in skool .
then suddenly got this thing come out !

i dont know what tuh think alr .
i just wanna shuttup in class !
just dont care what ppl say ..

fot hose who my mom called & disturbed , im sorry for that!
i really tried tuh stop her from talking tuh anyone.
but i think she buay tahan ler . she was angry .
as in which mother wont be angry .

i dont want care about what i feel alr .
just go skool sit there and shuttup.
dont tell me lidat call act pityful or act innocent ar ?

i nv disturb anyone alr.
u all dont like my attitude , then just heck care me la.
go away from me oso can.

i alr stated i duwan get close tuh anyone alr in class.

for now , i have a request luh.
DONT JUDGE ME FIRST. YOU WAN , THEN TELL THEM TUH YOUR FRIENDS , DUN TELL ME OR DUN LET ME KNOW BY PURPOSELY SAYING OUT . I ONLY ASK THIS ONLY.

whatever happens , im still faye.
i just need strength. be strong & just care about what needs tuh be cared.

if ever i nv respond tuh anyone , or answer questions , dun blame me..
im really tired alr.

byes.

hey.

hmmmmss. so late alr. i remembered tat my last LATE POST was when
im having lots of problems. but that one's about a guy. now,
its about friends (:

i realised who my true & real friends are just this week only.
marie . nilima . si hui . clara . hidayah . puaysee . hazel . weilin . ralph & nina .

only these ppl nv left me from start tuh end lor .
i really regret being close to anyone else.
its very funny tat none of them is in my class!

i guess its meant tuh be that they will be in a diffrent class.
so im gonna realise all my mistakes , wrong doing , changes , neglection & bad thoughts of them!

for my ex-xiao family ,
thanks a lot for being my friends last time.
when you all talked tuh me outside skool,
& told be about HER - not being my true friend, i guess you all are correct.
but i have one question in my mind.... if you all call her not a true friend,
then were you all my true friends? im not trying tuh imply anything.

but for anyone who will read this !
dont misunderstand if im quiet & not close tuh ANYONE in class.
cos i have chosen it tuh be this way..

i finally learnt & saw the true meaning of FRIENDS.
those who will never leave you , no matter what is going on. & no matter what
changes is happening in your life, they will STILL BE THERE. just waiting for you tuh go near them & ask for comfort.

so tuh all my classmates now ,
i want tuh be each & everyone's friend.
but not a close friend... i duwan tuh be involve in any particular GROUP alr.
cos there's no need tuh form a group if there's really true frendship inside.

i dun care what will ppl think if im quiet in class. or just by myself.
who cares! atleast i know who is true mahs.

the counselor told me that if im going tuh continue thinking about it ,
it wont help me at all.
so why nt i just let things happen?

talking less will offend less (:
being close tuh only a few ppl will make me more free (:
laughing & being happy with those REAL ppl is true happiness (:

i admit i love tuh help ppl.
especially when i see girls being SAD or EMO or whatever stuff.
not bcos im keipo. but cos i know how they feel !
but since i dont get any help back,
i wont put in so much effort tuh help alr.
i cannot do anything oso mah. just give advices is what i can only do!
like what someone say - "i dont like her! i just like her advice only!"
duwan mention the name luh. she dont even know i knw she said that !

just a quick revelation !
my weakest point in life is being alone. being just with myself.
i know im not. i have friends! but just not in class. so i'l try tuh keep
up with this principle.

so many wrong decisions! i always say im not good at making decisions.
so now , i finally know which is right & wrong when it comes tuh friends!

thanks tuh the ppl who backstab , betray , left me , didnt understand me , anyhow judged me & lied tuh me.
YOU ALL ARE MY INSPIRATION! IM SERIOUS .
cos through these ppl , i will get tuh know who my real friends are!
so thanks again.

i hope im clear with everyone :D
im not gonna post anything yet.
until everyone who must read this post get tuh read it.

tats all bah.

officially written - FAYE .

nasasaktan ako. promise. sobrang sakit!

hii ppl (:

just now kena suspended from class!!
DAMN IT!
my first time some more lor.
aiyyyaaas .
lucky got sharil pei me whole day.

hahahas. first we both outside staffroom de.
then two diff tables mah.
so everytime got teacher come out , we keep quiet.
then when they go, we tok tok tok. hahas! xD

thens , about 10:10 am ,
we went tuh the buddhist hall ler.
first teacher was the , i dunno P.E coach or what luhs.
but im sure he's a P.E teacher.
then next was the person who got a big big forehead.
then after that , its mr.ong.
then lastly , mr.lim !
lidatt lo =/
sian lorrr.
during mr.ong & mr.lim the period , im effing sleepy!
cannot tahan lors. i sleep secretly!
until 4 pm jiu release ler.
tomorow i got LRC!
i better remember this time! hahaha xD

miss my class x3
hope they miss me too. hahas. im so bhb!

buh-byes!

hey guys.

i didnt go skool ler. hahaha (:

cos my head effing pain lars. and i dont even have the energy tuh speak!
dont know what happen tuh skool today lor.
but i hope everything is fine bah!

hais hais hais :D :D

im bored.
i hope my mum will let me go skool tomorow!

and oh ,
what i strange dream!!! GRR . now i know who my TRUE friends are. and who my REAL **** is :D

hahahas xD

im slowly getting the life that i want ler.
like 2a last time.
i want it tuh be me & si hui . that's all xD


takecare!

weeeii (:

hahahas! today was CNY celebration in the skool le.

wooots. dancers we rock can!
i think our dance is okay ler..

i hope the seniors like it! YES (:

happy CNY tuh everyone (:

and i hope you all will have a great hols bah !

takecare!
x3

woooooots.

i very long nv post alr.

haiiss.

these few days , nth really much happened.
only dance is frigging stressful !
then just now rehearsal , is like nth lo.
all performers oso like very blur blur lidat.

then when our turn alr , very funny sia!
si hui the shoe too big le .
then her shoe fly out sia . hahaha :D

woots.
i hope everything will be fine by wednesday.
as in our performance.


wednesday i going tuh marie's house (:
should be bah .
aiyos. surely will be crazy agains!


tats all i think .

and thanks tuh zhan rong a lot ba.
for telling me what i need tuh change.
i really realised everything alr.
thank you !!

im frigging guilty in what i changed le.
im annoucing tuh the whole world!
the last year FAYE will be BACK!
promise (:

but some parts of me , really cant change luhs.
so just learn tuh understand bah.

haiis!

sweetiie i loveyou !
honey i missyou !
asshole thank you !
aiiren i need you !
si hui & marie i owe you !


hahas.. kk las (:

takecares x3

P.S.
i hope tomorow maths trail will be ok .