hey.

hmmmmss. so late alr. i remembered tat my last LATE POST was when
im having lots of problems. but that one's about a guy. now,
its about friends (:

i realised who my true & real friends are just this week only.
marie . nilima . si hui . clara . hidayah . puaysee . hazel . weilin . ralph & nina .

only these ppl nv left me from start tuh end lor .
i really regret being close to anyone else.
its very funny tat none of them is in my class!

i guess its meant tuh be that they will be in a diffrent class.
so im gonna realise all my mistakes , wrong doing , changes , neglection & bad thoughts of them!

for my ex-xiao family ,
thanks a lot for being my friends last time.
when you all talked tuh me outside skool,
& told be about HER - not being my true friend, i guess you all are correct.
but i have one question in my mind.... if you all call her not a true friend,
then were you all my true friends? im not trying tuh imply anything.

but for anyone who will read this !
dont misunderstand if im quiet & not close tuh ANYONE in class.
cos i have chosen it tuh be this way..

i finally learnt & saw the true meaning of FRIENDS.
those who will never leave you , no matter what is going on. & no matter what
changes is happening in your life, they will STILL BE THERE. just waiting for you tuh go near them & ask for comfort.

so tuh all my classmates now ,
i want tuh be each & everyone's friend.
but not a close friend... i duwan tuh be involve in any particular GROUP alr.
cos there's no need tuh form a group if there's really true frendship inside.

i dun care what will ppl think if im quiet in class. or just by myself.
who cares! atleast i know who is true mahs.

the counselor told me that if im going tuh continue thinking about it ,
it wont help me at all.
so why nt i just let things happen?

talking less will offend less (:
being close tuh only a few ppl will make me more free (:
laughing & being happy with those REAL ppl is true happiness (:

i admit i love tuh help ppl.
especially when i see girls being SAD or EMO or whatever stuff.
not bcos im keipo. but cos i know how they feel !
but since i dont get any help back,
i wont put in so much effort tuh help alr.
i cannot do anything oso mah. just give advices is what i can only do!
like what someone say - "i dont like her! i just like her advice only!"
duwan mention the name luh. she dont even know i knw she said that !

just a quick revelation !
my weakest point in life is being alone. being just with myself.
i know im not. i have friends! but just not in class. so i'l try tuh keep
up with this principle.

so many wrong decisions! i always say im not good at making decisions.
so now , i finally know which is right & wrong when it comes tuh friends!

thanks tuh the ppl who backstab , betray , left me , didnt understand me , anyhow judged me & lied tuh me.
YOU ALL ARE MY INSPIRATION! IM SERIOUS .
cos through these ppl , i will get tuh know who my real friends are!
so thanks again.

i hope im clear with everyone :D
im not gonna post anything yet.
until everyone who must read this post get tuh read it.

tats all bah.

officially written - FAYE .

nasasaktan ako. promise. sobrang sakit!