why does all good things comes to an end? why cant atleast ONE thing remain as it is? why must people's brains start to think of things we shouldnt even bother about? why do we meet people who fucks our life upside down?! why do we fall inlove? why cant we just live a without caring for anyone? why must i be faye? why cant i be someone else? why cant i control what i feel? WHY THE FUCK AM I ASKING THESE QUESTIONS -.-

i dont understand. my emotions are getting me crazy. i know exactly why. but ive no courage to admit it . cos it really hurts me . deep down, the pain is unbearable. & i tell you what ; since august 6, im already experiencing this. whoever's reading this now might ask me , "then why dont you tell me?" or bullshits like ; "lol. you never say out what you feel how would i know?" .
HA - HA - HA ! life is so cute nowadays. people want you to tell them what's wrong ; what's hurting you ; what's bothering you ; & OH_WHAT_THE_FUCK . will they even actually do anything ? 1/50 people in this world knows how to listen. 2/180 people in this world knows how to solve problems for other people. & trust me, you can actually count EVERY PERSON in this world who can be trusted & be beside you until everything is fine.

haha. very funny man :)
i was like, happy & enjoying things around me , then here i find myself again.
STUCKED. mylifehasnomeaningnow.iswear.

because of one thing , i can go crazy. i can put in all things together & blame everyone. especially myself.
i think so much . ya your fucking correct . i worry too much . idiot your right !
so what? im like that ! what can you do?
cna my world just stop spinning for even one hour ?

whatever . i really know the reason behind all these words infront of you now.
but i learnt from mistakes already.
i wont rush anything . & once people play with me, i play back.
im very easy to talk to . really :)
haha. no one's getting me. i know .
& nobody have to .

cheryl , this has got nothing to do with you.
thanks for being a sister - a girlffriend - a cheer buddy & everything.
i hope in the end, you'l be the one beside me .
lets find our DB soon . lols.
i'l make sure once i find it , i wont let it go.

& you , where are you when i needed you the most? if only your not capable of doing things to make me happy ... hehs . #$%!@!&^!

aya. fucked up now .
i'l chill . hope things go smoothly .