you know the feeling when everything just flashed back in one minute?
from the beggining, to how it happened, to why it did, to whom else were involved, til how it end?

the joy . the pain . the memories . the people . the longings .
all were unbearable. i didnt talk about you , nobody did. IN FACT, no one around me cares about you, nor 'US'.

but how come whenever i find myself alone, not talking to anyone or either just thinking of nothing, why do you always cross my mind? why must those good times linger on my mind? ITS HAUNTING ME CAN. i dont like it.
right, maybe because its just this day. maybe tomorrow there's nothing already. maybe. i hope so.

BECAUSE;
i dont love you, i dont anymore. IM VERY SURE.
BUT JUST THOSE THINGS! I WANT TO GET OVER YOU COMPLETELY! GET AWAY FROM MY MINDDDDDDDDDDD. YOU DONT DESERVE IT , ARRG.


OKAY! STOP NOW. that was just an excuse to crying, i dont want to cry for someone who's worth nothing & who had done me pain only. LALALA. MY POST STARTS

HERE.

yes! hey ! (lol?)
okay, today had SS paper . I CAN PASS! i know i can! but :[
lack of timeeeee. i spent around 10 minutes dreaming of something, & i regret.
again & again, i learn new things.
last night, oct.5 - i stayed up from 10 pm til 1.40 am to study two long chapters of SOCIAL STUDIES! & mind you, i dont know anything about it. it just got into me last night. & wooo, interesting sia. LOL.
heehee. so ya, no problems with the paper but, did alot of things halfway.

like, two 12-marks questions was started out correctly, but halfway cancelled,
due to under time pressure =x


BUT HEY! I PASSED MY ENGLISH, PLUS MATHS PAPER ONE! HAHAHAHA :]
i was like, what the hell? is mr.tay sure? THANK YOU Mr.Tay! I LOVE YOU!!! X333.
i know he just sort of gave me one or two points to pass.
cos its really near-impossible for me to pass.
when i was gone for 9 straight days from school, I MISSED OUT ONE TOPIC which came out for exam. mind you, that was 15 marks! & i left it blank. totally no stain of ink. lols .
BUT YESSS! I PASSSSSS :D

lalala. dont wanna be too happy. paper two is still on :|

okay, dont talk about chemistry. shiittt. then went to novena with cheryl&peifang.
ate at KFC , & came up with this plusminusdividemultiply slang! haha :]
thanks for the good day you girls :DD

yea then went to clarkquey mrt, waited for some idiot, then played there like siao.
we also kana scolded by that moron, who i think, first time see girls
playing like mad in mrt! LOL.

Share a picture with you all! i never felt this happiness before in SINGAPORE(2008), the feeling of true friendship :)


CHERYL , ME & PEIFANG!
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& yes, maybe. JUST maybe bacause it was october.6 today, a day when something shouldnt have been started. i guess everyone just come to a point whereas your stuck, dont know what to do, so you agree to something which you dont even like in the first place. and when you learn to like it, you treasure it, you keep a tight hold in it, and wanted to make it last for as long as you can. BUT it didnt worked out, cos it shouldnt in the first place. ITS A MISTAKE.

TIME TELLS IT ALL.



EDITED POST [10.43 PM] ~ SURVEY TIME :)

1. Are you smiling?
= Just now, cos of some funny guy. haha.

2. When is the last time you met someone new?
= NEW? hmmm , if considering just plain meet, just now. IF meet as in , became friends, i think that was 30.09.08.

3. What is irritating you now?
= Geog Exam . Tomorrow!

4. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
= OMG , decades ago. i dont wear pants.

5. Where do you sleep?
= my mom's bedroom .

6. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
= cos of love ?

7. Are you happy with where you are?
= YES. but i know i can be happier .

8. What do you want?
= A life where , both studies & fun can be done with friends [at hometown] .

9. Your home alone, right ?
= nah.

10. Last spoken words you heard?
= "huh?" by mom .

11. do you own Converse?
= shoes & a bag .

12. You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your ex, what do you do?
= OH PLEASE , i would rather die!

13. On average, what do you think you cry about the most?
= self-pity , pain memories , reflections , alot. i cry alot :)

14. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can tell everything to?
= uhm... maybe?

15. Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
= used-to mean a lot. not anymore .

16. Are you talkative?
= YES . YES YES YES . just that, sometimes preffered being quiet if not interested.

18. Are you restless?
= sometimes .

19. Do you secretly like someone?
= I have currently , 2 crushes now. CRUSH NIA! :D

20. Are you allowed to stay up later than 10pm on a weeknight?
= DUH . even if i get to bed, still up to me whether i close my eyes or not .

21. How is life going for you right now?
= peaceful . very . not organised but , i like it .

22. Want to be a princess?
= depends .

23. Do you believe dreams come true?
= ofcourse!

24. How do you feel about change?
= its normal , no one is consistent .

25. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
= i doubt so .

26. Do you have low self esteem?
= Sometimes :]

27. What are you wearing on your feet?
= nothing -.-

28. Do you smoke?
= Not anymore.

30. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
= there .

31. What is making you sad right now?
= I dont know what i frigging want.

32. The last compliment you received?
= im weird , i take it as a compliment. hahaha !

33. Today?
= October 6, 2008. If not for the date, its a good day.

34. Would you ever join the military?
= NO .

35. Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
= FORWARD! duh , i want exams to fly away nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ~

7:40 PM