2.11.08,
1 NOVEMBER,2008lalalalas. 3:27 am now you know ? :)
hais. reached home around 2:30 am++ . back from work .
yang heng really made my day everytime .
im thankful your not like any other guy. haha. thanks baobei! x3
uhm.. i think last night was unforgettable.
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if your done reading something bout me, stop reading this post now.the one i asked to read my blog.READ THIS PARTICULAR MESSAGE OVER & OVER AGAIN IF YOU NEED TO, COS ALL I WANT NOW IS FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHATEVER YOU NEED YO.you know, after last night,
i found out lots of things about you, me, US.
its very funny to know.. =x
do you know how terrible it felt reading your blog post?
i guess the first paragraph is not for me, but the 2nd onwards .
actually as ive said, ive alot to tell you.
but you just wouldnt give me the chance to .
i dont want to leave you. but if you want me out of your life
like for a moment, or whatever time you need,
im fine with it. maybe we need space too correct?
i can understand if you want that. cos that's how i feel
about jonathan too..
i think i gave you too much, & you took too much.
at the same time, you offered too much, but i reject too much.
you dont get this dont you?
what i mean is, when it comes to problems, i solve mine
all by myself, while you share all of yours with me.
you know i have this experience ; that i rely-ed too much on
someone, & then at the end of the day, he wasnt there for me
anymore, & i got stucked.
this is why i dont wanna bother you about my probs.
BECAUSE IM NOT GONNA BE WITH YOU TIL NEXT YEAR.
your like, my everything for this point of my life.
cos im not inlove to any guy, nor to any other girl.
well ,you should know that dont you?
cos never did i leave you in any
circumstances. nor bad times .
i even made it to the point that whenever im free,
i will find no one but you .
gah, no point typing all these out .
but its the only way to FINALLY say & do my part.
just waste any of your time reading this. like CAREFULLY.
i know its unfair , cos im leaving .
but i didnt intend to leave so i can run away from you .
if you had been my bestfriend since sec one,
maybe it will be different now . cos i couldve
spent 3 years with you by then .
but look at the logic behind my history.
my bestfriends in sec one,
gone in sec 2.
my bestfriend in sec 2 ,
gone in sec 3.
all were replaced! but look at us now man .
were like so strong & even if we dont understand each
other that much, we build things up.
& infact, nobody destroyed us right?
cos they know were really happy with each other.
hais, i hope your really reading this. cos its not
easy to post something like this.. we shouldnt
care if other people read it bah . heck care them .
okay back to my point.
we have a lot of differences. nothing in common actually?
your into a sport im not , im into a talent you aint passionate about.
look at our houses. yours is like heaven, mine is below yours.
then my lifestyle , my background .
realised that before? hmmmm. i can also say that
we taught each other things that we cant learn from just anyone.
why am i saying all these?
cos babe, we have to face the fact now..
were grown ups & have each others' wants.
what i want is ; to start over.
you mentioned you wanna forget the past? i want that too.
& in order for that to happen, we need to
TEMPORARILY leave each other. like move on without you? without me?
i dont know how to survive days without you but,
i wanna try.. im not saying goodbye okay?
im never gonna leave you. NOT AT THIS POINT OF TIME.
uhm you tell me your thoughts & wants too.
a friendster message will be best for me.
or you blog it out too, but noobs will find a way out
to know who you are. hehe :]
i miss talking to you sia. its like, just 28 hours passed
but there's already alot to tell. ahh! iloveyou.
3:27 AM
