Please allow me to express myself.

30.11.08,

7.34 am now ! & im very moody :x

Hmm, i feel very packed up. er, i dont know if i used that word correctly.
You know when your happy , but your afraid to be?
Cos all good things comes to an end anyway ~
I just want to enjoy my remaining days in singapore .
With the correct people ofcourse .
I said this before, if you suddenly realised i faded away from you life, dont ever ever blame me.

Okay, basically i miss alot of things.
i miss manjusri . i miss 3b1 actually ~
i dont like it when i miss alot of people . cos i can go crazy =x
I want to go back to the days when ... there's a cheryl. there's a jonathan.
there's a deneng. there's tiffany they all. there's meimei they all. & there's marie & sihui .
you know those days when the ones you loved most are by your side ,
while those you love as equal, are not exactly there but you know they still love you?
THAT . that is what i want to feel for so long .

AND . .
Im not happy with my life . That's the truth .
Im not inlove , im not ready to be inlove.
Ha. so if charles read this he'll be acting strange again .
now im hoping for your 2 weeks out-of-singapore .
atleast i can have my own personal time first , more time & space to think
if im ready for a relationship with you .

hais ~
how come i dont know what i want? how come im afraid to make decisions?
how come im very scared of facing reality by myself?
& how come i just cant be satisfied .

CAN SOMEONE BRING ME TO SOMEWHERE , SOMEWHERE THAT I CAN FEEL THERE'S ONLY ME & YOU ?(whoever the person is*) CAN ANYONE DO THAT FOR ME ? :(
I JUST WANT TO THINK . TO BREATHE . TO SEE MYSELF . TO RELAX? SAY ME PATHETIC , WELL MY LIFE IS REALLY PATHETIC. I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE! YOU DONT HAVE TO TALK , YOU DONT HAVE TO LISTEN , JUST BE WITH ME AND SHUTTUP. THAT WILL DO. JUST ANYONE , BRING ME THERE . I'LL FOLLOW.

Charles ian ,
Sometimes, the ones that you love dontfeel the same way you do.
and it hurts you badly that it'll get your heart weak .
But mhine, You Can Never Give Up On LOVE.

Cheryl ,
Takes time to find someone like what you want. I havent found it either what . So lets just stick to each other's side uh. Aya, we both know every good thing will be over ; but lets prove to the world our friendship is an exception. Stay put (:

Patrick ,
Thank you. I swear im so thankful to meet you ! Fuxcks, the best guy friend. Even better than any guy friend i met . Stay the same please. I need you okay. We'll find your girl soon ~

Anyone else reading my blog ,
YOU! yes you . If you want something in your life,
look for it! dont sit down & wait for heaven to drop it on you.
Learn from my mistakes lah , take every opportunity you have.
There might not be a second chance.

Cos in the end, it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years.

Bullshitted ended at 8.07 am .
imma sleep now , meeting patrick they all later ~
please let this be a good day. POOf.

7:34 AM

Let me get this simple & straight.
Im someone. IM REALLY SOMEONE.
Who is yearning for peace of mind.
Someone who wanna correct my mistakes.
And someone who want to change the world.
Lie, to save myself from getting scolded.
BUT PLEASE. THERE'S LOVE in my heart.
So quit the judge. Thanks & try to read my posts. :)

You never know you can learn from me ...