IM VERY SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING.

i seriously wanted to post about the past few days.
but yea, ive no mood? you know when i open my blogspot ?
i just cant get myself to click the 'new post' tab .
i dont know why either .
im very fucked up now. because of my little brother .
im not willing to become a big sister to him.
i repeat, im not willing at all.
if he atleast knows how to takecare of himself & do his stuffs by himself,
i can help him out more.
but fuck? he dont know a single shit.
he only know how to fuck my day upside down everyday!
THAT'S WHY I DONT WANNA GO HOME!
with this kind of bro , with parents not talking,
with mom's nags , her unreasonable commands.
dad's expectations , dad's assignments.
I CANNOT DO ALL THOSE.
i had enough le . i so wanna run away from everything .
CHERYL? i can answer your question now .
then why would you want to back to your country?!"
BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A GOOD DAUGHTER .
I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A RESPONSIBLE BIG SISTER .
atleast there, in my hometown.
i just have to worry about my studies. nothing else.
cause all i have to do is wake up, go home & prepare for the next
day. things that will bother me , will be in school anyway.
not at home.
i dont even think mine is called home .

tired . confused . just dont give me anymore troubles.
you have to think of me too .