Please allow me to express myself.

19.1.09,

I so wanna quit KFC alrdy . lalalala. okay, reality check now.
My mom found out that im actually bluffing her ; ~~at work~~ but actually not.

So the grounded days are here again. But ofcourse, because i know she's gonna
take my handphone as soon as i reach home, i asked for someone else's phone.
So, my prepaid's still on okay! sighs.

ARG! problems again! so super suay. saturday night, it was suppose
to be another group hang out with friends..
But then -.-
Okay, whatever. settled taiji at eunos .
Boys sparring nias. JIDAN!@!#!#~@#~!@!#$
that group is seriously so gay okay! they announced that they won,
but what? were chasing after you all & you guys run away?
STUPID =x
waste our time. not only that,
they informed their parents about the fight.
HELLO!!? your parents know OUR parents luh!
FUCK . go to hell man. i swear im cursing those boys.

so here's all the trouble i caused. remember? i said im gonna be a bitch first. maybe that's life. you feel something & you try your outmost to do it.

Well. My mom knows the whole story already.
But, she doesnt even open up this topic to me ):
& that's not good news. Cause i alrdy discussed with a friend,
that WE wont longer lie about anything, anymore.
But my mom's not talking ):
Right. Maybe she feels that i wont listen anyway.
Or, maybe she knows by just locking me up will do.
Fuck baby. Pft.

you know, i really wonder myself why in the world i cant leave you. your. your. your actually someone girls must avoid to fall inlove with. because you'l either hurt them, or play the game of hide & seek with them. i know alot of things already ):
& you suck. im so fucking vain now. its as if i dont care sharing you with anyone. as long as your happy & as long i can take care of you.
okay, am i really capable of making you happy? Fuck okay.
the words you speak are so man? okay. their lovely. I so wanna believe it.
But parts of me just tell myself, no. its not true. he says that to other girls too.
WELL. i dont know. i love you. JUST. JUST. just dont hurt other girls .
BE .. be happy!

That's all i ask of you ten ):
di mu nman to mababasa e. hahaha. ayus lang to :D

OKAY! that's it. feelings showered. goodbye (:

12:19 PM

Let me get this simple & straight.
Im someone. IM REALLY SOMEONE.
Who is yearning for peace of mind.
Someone who wanna correct my mistakes.
And someone who want to change the world.
Lie, to save myself from getting scolded.
BUT PLEASE. THERE'S LOVE in my heart.
So quit the judge. Thanks & try to read my posts. :)

You never know you can learn from me ...