Please allow me to express myself.

9.1.09,

What IF .

What if you manage to get all the friends, attention, love,
concerns, care & whatever it is that you so wanna have?
What if.. What if 3 boys like you at the same time? & you dont want
ANY OF THEM to be ~~unattracted~~ to you?
What if... what if you actually wake up one day, & the guy
you wanna get rid of, is finally gone?
What if another one comes, & he makes you so happy, so happy
that you forgets the rest, but you dont care?
What if the other 2 is showing signs that they dont want
this person (whose making you happy) around?
What if you actually played along. Like love him, but care for the other?
WHAT IF YOU FELL INLOVE WITH SOMEONE , but have to give him up
because you know nothing is going right between the 2 of you?
Here's the twist.
You gave '#2' up .
But '#3 & #4' stood there for you.
They made you feel you can cling on to them. Anytime, anywhere.
Sure . so everything's fine.
Until .. Well, '#2' is trying his very best to make you
realise its a mistake to leave him .
& the guy you got rid of previously, now comes back with
somewhat 'atitude' towards you . (because you rejected him).
So yes, you have '#3 & #4' by your side ,
while '#2 & *guy you got rid of' keeps irritating & making you loose up.
Good. Fare & square isnt it?
Still nothing wrong? Guess what . '#3' suddenly realised that ..
your actually trying to make him stay . While all along his
TWO VERY GOOD FRIENDS , are hurting because of you.
So '#3' outta your side . What do you have left ? HIM.
Him, him who seems to be so inlove with you.
So inlove with you that he made the rest think that they shouldnt
even talk to you regarding the past, be it the good or the bad.
your fine with that set up for a few days.
But ..

What IF .
What if you suddenly realised half of the world has gone
just because of a big storm in your life?
and .
What if .. What if that big storm was actually
the one who cathes your tears, who corrects your mistakes,
who stands up for you when you loose, who stops your worries,
who make you laugh , who LOVE YOU. who protects you.
EVERYTHING!

FUCK! WHAT IF YOU JUST CANT SEEM TO CHOOSE BETWEEN
A WORLD FULL OF PEOPLE AROUND BUT WITH UNCERTAINTY
OR A WORLD WHERE THERE'S JUST YOU & HIM but EVERYONE IS KINDA AWAY FROM YOU , BUT HE LOVES YOU, HE MAKES YOU HAPPY, HE ASSURES YOU THERE'S ANOTHER TOMORROW, ~ ..

But your not that happy anymore?

):

11:03 PM

Let me get this simple & straight.
Im someone. IM REALLY SOMEONE.
Who is yearning for peace of mind.
Someone who wanna correct my mistakes.
And someone who want to change the world.
Lie, to save myself from getting scolded.
BUT PLEASE. THERE'S LOVE in my heart.
So quit the judge. Thanks & try to read my posts. :)

You never know you can learn from me ...